DEAD SENSES || J.JK ✔

21| Loathsome

I get taken aback for a moment, but don't understand anything. I swallow down the thick bitterness, "hey, what happened?" My head aching the more i hear nothing but silence coming from her, i grab the blanket to keep it aside, "june?"

She wipes her cheek which isn't red and blood-stained, and gazes at me with these painful wet eyes, "nothing happened, i fell." I stop clenching on my jawline, not taking her lies, "stop twisting the words." I hold her hand and take it off her cheek, hating to see the red bruise which seems to have dried, it can be harmful for her. She sobs, but comes forth and hugs me.

"I'm sorry, i didn't mean to break her earring, mister jeon." Her sobs now exposing more vulnerably as she tells me what happened, my mind takes a big pause for a second and when it works up again, the anger and pain inside me explodes at once.

"I won't do it again, i'll be careful." She damps my shirt with her tears, i hold her close and rub my hand over her back all around to soothe her, the image of my fucking wife pissing me off to an extent i cannot believe that it really is me, i have never been so aware of my feelings, but i for sure know about this one, and it's a strong hatred which is taking control of me little by little everyday. All towards the woman i married, had being blinded by my love in the past.

"It's okay," i press a kiss on her delicate body, and i pull her close to me once more to let her pain disappear, i know it''ll take a long time to go, but at least i can help it alleviate. "I'll clean it, sweetheart," she scratches her cheek but causes the skin to scrape and i leave her to go bring the first aid from her bathroom.

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"What the fuck is wrong with you?" I take the phone out her hand, keeping my cool as best as i could, but my wrath reflects in her facial expressions, she frowns but stares. "What?"

"Do not play innocent, you fucking hit her. Do you think i'd let it pass, eunwoo?" She breathes out filthily, getting up to face me, "i didn't mean t-" I cut her, "just stop lying. How do you hit someone without meaning to?" My voice raises and she steps back but looks at me as if i am the bad one here, as if she's the victim, "are you telling this to me...jungkook?"

"Yes i am, is there anyone else here?" I take one step further and tell her what's been stuck inside my chest, "don't pretend to be the innocent one and make me the bad guy again, it's fucking enough and i can't take these shits of yours anymore."

Her empty eyes water but i glance at hanuel who's stepping down the stairs slowly. She stops in her way, staring at me, she won't look at her mother but me. I hate this.

"Don't ever dare lay a hand on her again or i do something which i regret a lot, you heard me?" Eunwoo wipes her fake alligator tears, being the one to pretend as righteous in front of our daughter. "I'll go apologize." She messes with me. I stop her and grab her wrist, not wanting her to go and joke around again, i know her so well that it sometimes hurts. "Don't, do not." I stare at her eyes, "just get the f-" i hold back from cursing, swallowing the tight bitter feeling creeping up from my inside. And i sigh, "go away from my sight and hers."

I leave her wrist, and she takes her hand back, looking at me with red eyes. I glance down at the mark i left on her hand. My head's messing with me like really bad right now, i think i have to do something to clear the stuffs off it soon.

I rub my face with both my hands, cooling it down and pushing the emotions all aside for some time to not feel anything which bothers me, i fake a smile and turn around to my little baby.

"Hanuel..." My eyes cool down when i see her, and i walk to her but she steps back.

I frown, unable to realize why she does this. She cannot think of me this way, it can't be. "Honey..." she tightens her hold on her toy but averts my gaze and run upstairs. Her absence just worsening my state, i hold back from feeling weak and i grab the cold metal railing, feeling low like my body would fall down anytime, and i sit down here before that could happen.