Losing Her

Chapter 44: Broken

IRENE'S POV

Nandito kami ngayon sa Ilocos and we are having a talk dito sa garden habang nagm-merienda.

"So Ellie, when is your flight back to London?" Mommy asked.

Wait she's going back there? Akala ko ba hindi na sya aalis? She promised me she won't.

"Bukas po Lala. I'll take the 6:00 AM flight sa Laoag then connecting po from MIA to London." She answered.

"Aalis ka? You didn't even told us?" I asked her.

"Ellie, you didn't tell Ate Irene? Your Mom told you na magpaalam ka sa kanya. Sabi mo pinayagan ka." Aimee said.

"Pinayagan? She didn't even mention anything to us. Akala ko she'll stay na dito for good." I looked at Celestine. She's just looking down.

"I have decided po to accept an offer there. Nandoon po ang buhay namin ni Mama. I need to go back." She's not looking at me.

"Buhay niyo? Anak naman. I'm here oh. Aalis ka nanaman? Iiwan mo nanaman ako? Choose me naman this time oh." I started to feel my heart breaking.

"I have decided na po. You can visit me naman there pero minsan lang po dahil di ko rin kayo masyado maa-accomodate Mama and I would be busy." She coldly answered.

It scares me sa totoo lang. The past 2 months nasanay na ako ulit na kasama sya. It made me so happy and I don't want to go back to that place nanaman where I'm looking for her everyday pero wala akong magawa.

"But anak you promised me." My tears started to fall.

"That promise meant nothing. I have given 2 months na for you. I didn't even take politics. Ain't that enough?" She stood up and walked inside.

"Ellie!" Kuya Bong called her.

"Tito, Mama's life is there, my life is there. I am choosing her. I'm sorry Tita Irene." She apologized.

"Ellie come back here. Let's talk it out." Mommy reprimanded.

Naupo naman si Celestine sa harap ko.

"Mommy please. I had to choose and I have made my choice. Nasasaktan ako everytime na nakikita kitang ganyan. Pero masasaktan rin ako if malalayo ako kay Mama. I need to go back sa London. Please let me go na po. Nasasaktan lang tayo parehas." She wiped my tears then held my hand.

"Mommy, for 2 months I wasn't able to spend my time with Mama because she told me to spend time with you. She flew to London and left me here. Everyday I miss her and I feel incomplete. I tried to be happy na kasama kayo ni Dad and trust me I was. But I am incomplete. I hurt everyday na wala sya sa tabi ko. Mommy, masakit na po." Her tears fell.

Is that what she truly feels? Akala ko masaya sya samin. Akala ko enough na kami to make her happy. For the past 2 months we enjoyed our moments together. I felt complete. I didn't know she doesn't feel the same.

"Irene, she have made her choice. We need to let her go." Greggy put his hands on my shoulder.

I looked at Celestine. Her eyes are full of tears and you can see that she's really hurting. She misses her Mama so much.

"Will all your pain be gone if I finally let you go?" My own question broke my heart.

She nodded. That broke me more. She broke her promise once again.

I cupped her cheeks and kissed her forehead.

"I'm letting you." I forced a smile.

"Thank you Mommy." She hugged me.

"Enough na with the drama for today. Fix yourselves dahil may dinner pa tayo mamaya for Ellie bago sya umalis bukas." Mommy told us.

Nagbitaw na kami ng yakap at sabay sabay na silang pumasok sa loob. Naiwan kami ni Mommy dito sa labas.

"Are you sure you're okay anak?" Mommy handed me my phone.

"I am Mommy. Thank you." I forced another smile.

Pumasok na rin sya sa loob and I dialed someone on my phone.

"Hello?" She answered.

I felt my heart shattered when I heard her voice.

My comfort.