Your probably wondering what I said to Josh at school today. I think I have a serious mental issue because I said yes...
We were officially going out again.
Was I happy about it? Heck yeah!!
Was Mackenzie happy about it? Well, how do I put this? She tried beating the crap out of me. Now that I look back at it, I laugh. She was running at me in her new 4 inch heels, and she tripped and fell right on me. She got hospitalized for a few weeks because she fell face first and broke her nose. She also broke her leg (I know it sounds unrealistic, but I pushed her off of me and didn't know she would land on a sharp rock. Good job me!)
Then she got expelled for trying to attack an innocent person!! =) maybe my life won't turn out as horrible as planned!!
But I feel really guilty!! I never meant to push her and make her nearly die!! I'm so grateful that no one knows it was me who practically killed her. Oh, GOD WHAT HAVE I DONE!?
Well now I'm talking to Josh! And I'm planning on telling him what really happened to Mackenzie. But I'm scared to. I've always just been that quite girl who never talks. I've always been the "goody-goody"! No one expects anything of me! They don't know that I almost killed someone today! They probably think that I don't know how to kill someone! They judged me.
But I don't want to come off to people as "the girl who almost killed someone but nobody knows how or why she almost did"! I don't want to be known as "the crazy psycho"!
But I should be thankful that the demon of my life is gone.
Now to tell Josh the truth...
"Josh, today Mackenzie almost died."
"Yeah Jaki, I already know that. Tell me something I don't know!"
"I know something you don't know, I know who almost killed her."
"OMG WHO DID IT!? THERE GONNA BE IN SSSOOO MUCH TROUBLE!!"
"Swear not to tell anyone... Please Joshie! Don't tell anyone!"
"Yeah, yeah! Cut the stalling! Just get on with it!"
Wait! Hold up! Stop the tape! Just a quick questioning time:
Should I trust Josh? After all, he is only the most popular, hottest guys I've ever seen. That type can be hard to trust!
"Hello?? Jaki?? Are you alright?? Are you still there?"
"What? Oh, yeah, I'm fine. I'm still here. Just uuuuummm dazed out a little? What ever."
"Tell me who almost killed Mackenzie!"
"IT WAS ME JOSH! OKAY? IT WAS ME!"
"Woah..."
He hung up. I wish I could tell him in real life! What's his facial expression? Is he mad at me? Is he thankful that I got a load taken off his shoulders?
Maybe I just made the biggest mistake of my life, with trusting that boy! Maybe he's the best thing that's ever happened to me? I don't know!! Please, lord! Just don't make my life have anymore stress than it already does! That's all I'm asking right now! I hope that's not too much to ask!!
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Idk what to really say about this chapter. It was intense for me to write... OMG I ALMOST EPICALLY FAILED!! I almost wrote 'right' instead of 'write' now I feel like a dummy! Oh well! Screw it!! FML, JK!
~SAVVLES!! (It's an inside thing)
