A Game to You

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I woke up the next morning and Robin was still asleep, along with Mike and Lucas. Everyone else was awake and watching a movie. "Mornin' Skye," Steve said. "Good morning," I rubbed my eyes and sat up.

Steve looked at me, "What happened," he mouthed. I rolled my eyes and stood up, motioning for him to walk with me. We walked into Mike's room and sat down on his bed.

"Okay, are y'all okay, what happened," he said frantically as he sat down on the bed next to me. "Steve, do you really think I would be here right now if we were okay," I looked at him like he was stupid.

If everything was okay with Eddie and I, I wouldn't be here, I would be with him.

"Right," he said. "He didn't forgive me, he asked me to tell him the whole story, he thinks I was faking everything, he said he needs time and doesn't know if he'd be able to forgive me," I said, trying really hard not to think about it so I wouldn't cry

"I'm sure he will forgive you, Skye, I've seen the way he looks at you. It's the same way I look at Nancy, he isn't going to throw love like that away," he said, placing his hand on my back. "You don't know that, Steve." I started crying and he hugged me. "I'm so scared, I don't want to lose him," I cried into his chest.

"Oh no," I heard a voice say quietly from the door way. More arms wrapped around me.

Robin.

"Skye, what happened," she asked. "Eddie," I said and I felt Steve shake is head at her.

"I feel so stupid," I laid my head down on Robins lap. "No, you are not stupid, don't say that," she said, petting my head.

"But I am, I should've told him," I said. "If that's the case then it's my fault, I should've told you to tell him," Steve said.

"Stop. Just stop, it's nobody's fault but mine. I did it, I made the decision, it's my fault," I snapped, raising my voice at them. I walked out of the room and stormed out of the house. I walked over to my car and just left.

I drove to an empty abandoned parking lot. I parked my car and just cried. I laid my forehead on the steering wheel and sobbed, not caring how loud I was, or if anyone was around to see me. I just had to get it all out.

I'm so fucking tired of Steve and his "Don't worry, he'll forgive you," bullshit. The only person I wanted to tell me "It's okay," was Eddie.

I knew where was more I could do. This is the last thing I'm going to do, after this, I give up.

I drove back to my house and ran upstairs to my room.

I grabbed a notebook and opened the book, finding a familiar page.

Once I finished my shower I changed, walked back into my room and grabbed a notepad along with a pen. I opened the book and flipped to an empty page, I titled it "Eddie Munson" I wrote down the steps I would need to take, I'm not in high school anymore so I knew that would make this a little more difficult.

Step one - Meet up with him at the trailer park

Step two - Flirt.

Step three - Ask him if I could come in and hang out

Step four - Hang out with him a lot

Step five - Fuck him

   "Gotta have some fun with this right," I joked.

Step six - Keep it going till he falls in love with me

I tore it out of the book and crumbled it up, throwing it onto my floor.