"If you want to get rid of me, then you have only one option. Take our Sultan's heart, because I don't want to live in a world where he doesn't exist."
Three weeks have passed since Suleiman went to Edirne with Mahidevran, Mustafa and Mehmed. Hürrem felt bad for this whole time because she haven't seen her son for three weeks and he was with Mahidevran only. She didn't know if she would even care about him and I knew it was really hard for her. I was glad Suleiman respected me enough to let Murad stay in the palace because I think I wouldn't be able to stay peaceful with my son for this period.
"Has His Majesty said when he is returning?" I asked Valide Sultan with who I finally had normal relationship. I knew there was no sense of being in bad relationship because she was Valide Sultan and I didn't want to disrespect her.
"They should stay there for two more weeks as I know. I think this is maybe too long period for him to be absent from the castle," she said and looked at Hürrem and me who were in her chambers. She was really angry on Hürrem and she always threated her worse than she did Mahidevran or me.
"I hope nothing bad has happened," Hürrem said and sighed. I really hoped also nothing bad happened because after all, I loved Suleiman so much and I wanted our relationship to become better. I couldn't stand him being far away from me and especially when he is with Mahidevran for so long time.
At that moment Sumbul came into Valide Sultan's chambers even without knocking which was weird to us all. He came in front of Valide and he seemed like he is shaking right now.
"Valide Sultanim... They arrived to the palace," Sumbul started to say as his voice was shaking and all of three us stood up as we knew something bad has happened when Sumbul behaved like this.
"His Majesty is hurt, he got some sickness and he can't wake up, they sent him to his chambers now... May God help us," Sumbul said and I immediately ran out of the Valide's chambers same way she and Hürrem did the moment after me.
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I ran towards Suleiman's chambers and I saw there are Mahidevran with Mustafa and Mehmed who were both crying. Hürrem ran and took Mehmed in her hands while we were standing in front of Suleiman's chambers.
"Let me in," I ordered agha which was standing on the doors, but he kept silent and didn't respond to me.
"Did you hear me?" I yelled on him once again not caring if anyone here not even Valide Sultana is here. I needed to see Suleiman.
"His Majesty has one sickness that we don't know about, it is dangerous and no one should enter inside," Yahya Efendi, Suleiman's doctor came inside and said to us all and I felt like I would collapse every second.
"Yahya Effendi what is with my son?" Valide Sultan asked as she couldn't stop her tears that were going down her eyes.
"We don't know, but Sultan can't wake up. We don't know if he can survive this," he said before walking away and I was broken. I couldn't even see him nor know how is he now. I couldn't know what would happen next but the doctors gave only the worst possibility to us. I knew Suleiman would get over this and become healthy again and strong ruler like he used to be, but fear was killing me inside what if anything bad happens and I behaved so bad and I was so cold towards him in the last time.
