"If you want to get rid of me, then you have only one option. Take our Sultan's heart, because I don't want to live in a world where he doesn't exist."
"Sultanim, I am glad they found out the truth and you are coming back to your son," Cihan said to me as we were sitting in the carriage that would take us back to the Palace.
"I am happy only to see my son, but I will never forget this to all of them. Hurrem, Valide, Ibrahim, but especially Suleiman, never," I said and looked outside of the window to see how close we are because I couldn't wait to see my son.
"Sultanim, the most important is that they found out the truth. I heard Hurrem Sultana will be punished now," Cihan said trying to calm me down but my heart was full of disappointment towards everyone that nothing could.
"Of course she deserves to be punished, but what it will mean? She already left once before to Old Palace and returned, same way I returned. Her punishment means nothing to me when I don't want to see anyone of them anymore," I said.
We arrived to the Palace and the first thing I did was to run immediately to see my son Murad. Everyone gathered in Harem when they saw me but I didn't care about anyone. I went hurrying to my chambers to see my son.
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I couldn't wait to see him finally. How unlucky I was to get separated from my son when I did nothing wrong and everyone accused me of doing it. Even Suleiman who claimed to love me a lot separated me from our baby son and I couldn't forgive this to him.
When I entered my chambers I saw Suleiman sitting there on my bed and holding Murad in his hands. I didn't even want to see him but I could think that he would do this to talk with me when I arrive, because he knew I was angry and wouldn't come to him. I just bowed to him and took Murad in my arms and kissed my baby who I missed so much.
"I missed you so much Dilruba," Suleiman said as I was turned to him with my back which I shouldn't do but in this moment I didn't care anymore. I didn't even want to look at him or to speak with him. I didn't answer him even a word.
He walked around and stood in front of me when I placed Murad in his crib as he was sleepy. I really didn't want to have this conversation with Suleiman.
"You won't say a word to me?" Suleiman asked me as he looked at my face but my eyes looked everywhere except at him.
"Dilruba," he said and took my hand into his but I stepped back not wanting any close moments with him after what happened.
"Suleiman, go to Hurrem now who you think is innocent, don't be here with me after you banished me and separated me from my son," I said coldly. It was very surprising for Suleiman as he for sure didn't expect this reaction from me.
"I know Hurrem did it, your maid confessed everything," Suleiman said in a calm tone trying to make me forgive him but it couldn't be this time.
"But you blamed me at first without even letting me tell you my view of this story. You didn't even ask me about that but blamed me. You repeated to me how much you love me but you didn't care then and looked at me with disgust, now don't come here after me because I don't want to be close to you now," I said and stepped back from him once again and of course Sultan of the whole world couldn't believe someone would behave this way to him.
"Hurrem will be punished for acts she has ordered to be done, you shouldn't doubt about that," Suleiman said like he thought that would change the things.
"She will be but you will forgive her soon so she will return here like she did before. Maybe she will once again do something and then you will blame me again," I said seriously and was just walking away further from him.
"I apologize to you Dilruba because I made mistake and I am sorry. I apologize to you and I never wanted to hurt you because every day you spent far away from me I realised I can't live without you," Suleiman said this time with more anger and more passion but I saw he is sorry for his acts, but was still angry on me who was raising my voice on him.
It was rare moment when Sultan of the whole world had to apologise to someone, especially it was weird because it was for me but I knew I couldn't just accept his two words and then continue life like nothing has happened. He can apologise to whoever he wants but I won't continue this if he doesn't show me proof he won't be doing this anymore.
"I don't want apologises to you, I want to make sure those things won't happen ever again. I don't want to be the one who is blamed because you know yourself I would never ever do something like this and still blamed me. I don't want to continue our relationship if you don't prove me you can change and you can trust me," I said seriously to him. He might have thought who I am to ask those things from him but if we love each other we must respect and trust each other.
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"And what if I don't prove you that I changed or you think that I don't trust you?" Suleiman asked me raising his eyebrows.
"Then you can forget about me and never ever call for me again. You will never be able to see me anymore or hear my voice. Only thing that might connect us is Murad, but I won't be your consort anymore," I said seriously not caring about the consequences.
"Because you must understand I am not like Mahidevran and Hurrem and I won't accept those things. If you love me you won't separate me from yourself and trust anyone rather than me. Don't ever forget that," I said seriously once again and turned my back to him.
He didn't answer even a word, he just left my chambers.
