Duty or Desire // Jon Snow // Robb Stark

82. What is love?

'I wish you hadn't done that.'

'I am grateful for your loyalty, but my dragon died so that we could be here if it's all for nothing then he died but nothing!' Daenerys told him

'I know,' jon muttered

'I'm glad you finally decided to bend the knee to our queen but have you ever considered to lie every now and again just a bit?' Tyrion asked.

'I'm not going to swear an oath I cannot uphold, talk about my father if you want, but when enough people make false promises, promises stop meaning anything.' Jon told them his eyes moving to Odie. 'And there are no more answers only better and better lies' Jon told them 'and lies won't help us win this fight'

'That is indeed a problem... we are fucked.' Tyrion told them

'Is there any plan on how we change that statement?' Davos asked

'Only one. We stay here and I go and talk to my sister' tyrion said.

'Be careful Tyrion.' Odie told him as he walked off.

"Talk to Snow.' Tyrion told her. 'Its clear as day you love him and he you.' Tyrion told her.

'What is love without trust? Commitment?' Odie countered.

'Don't lose him over one moment of weakness.' Tyrion countered. He stopped walking and turned back to her. 'Are you going to heed my advice?'

'I guess you will just have to survive your sister to find out.' Odie told him. He smiled to himself before heading down the path.

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Jon picked up bones off the Colosseum floor examining the remains of what once was.

'No one is less happy about this than I am' jon said as Dany approached him

'I know' Daenerys told him 'I respect what you did, I wish you hadn't done it but I respect it. This place was the beginning of the end for my family,' she told him taking the bone from him 'a dragon is not a slave they were terrifying extraordinary they filled people with wonder and awe and we locked them in here they wasted away... they grew small and we grow small as well... we weren't extraordinary without them we were just like everyone,' else she handed him back the jaw bone.

'You are not like everyone else. You are still here' jon reminded her.

'I can't have children' Dany admitted.

'Who told you that?'

'The witch who took my husband'

'Did you ever think she might not be a reliable source?' jon offered

'You were right from the beginning if I trusted you everything would've been different' dany said blaming herself.

'So what now?' Jon asked

'I can't forget what I saw north of the wall and I cannot think that cersei won't take back what we took if we go north of the wall.' Dany admitted.

'We are fucked' jon decided but he was distracted. Not by their impending doom but Odie, he watched her walking away with Tyrion before she turned back to sandor. She held tight to her brother. If they were all going to die he needed things to be right with Odie. 'Excuse me, your grace.' Jon said letting the bone fall to the ground. Dany watched with distaste as Jon left her once again for a low born. Dany was a queen yet he kept running back to HER.

'Odetta.' Jon whispered and Odie tensed in sandors arms.

"Fuck off boy.' Sandor snarled.

'No.' Jon told him. 'I need to talk to you. I need to tell you what happened.'

'I saw what happened jon.' Odie said softly, slowly she let go of sandor. Jon pulled Odie away from sandor, not liking the glare he was getting, threatening, like he was going to tear Jon limb from limb.

'Odie please just listen to me.' Jon begged. 'she kissed me. I should have pulled away immediately. I know. That was wrong. I was wrong. But I don't love her.'

'had I not found you, dropped that cup, pulling your attention away... would you have though?' odie questioned. Jon hesitated and odie scoffed.

"Yes.' He told her.

'you had to think about it.' Odie said miserably. 'You know Robb had his fun but after we were together, really together he didn't look twice at anyone else.' Odie told him. 'He told me he loved me with his whole heart...' odie didn't want to cry she wanted to be brave and strong but she felt so broken, she saw Dany staring at them from the corner of her eye. 'You are loyal to the dragon Queen, you do what she says, follow her into battle and into bed perhaps?' odie questioned.

'No!' jon told her taking a step forward but she took two back.

'I love you jon. I've always loved you.' Odie told him wiping at her eyes. 'but I'm just another girl to you, aren't i?'

'NO!" jon told her reaching for her but she pulled her hands away from him.

'Don't touch me.' she said meekly.

'She kissed me. I should have pulled away, I wasn't thinking-'

'Clearly you were thinking of something.' Odie muttered.

'I love you. I have always loved you!' Jon told her.

'The wildling lover?' Odie questioned and jon let out a deep pained breath. 'what did your commanders say? You want someone that fights the enemy or fucks them?' odie rasped. 'the guys at the wall liked to talk.'

'you were fucking my brother.' Jon reminded her. 'you married ROBB!' jon shouted.

'I did. Because it was my duty but I did love him. That's why when I heard you had found someone else I wasn't mad, I didn't care,' odie told him honestly. 'It started off as a duty but it became desire.' Odie told him and his face pinched. 'I had a baby, I lost it.' Odie told him. 'Robbs baby. I was ready for a life with Robb so when I heard you had moved on I didn't blame you but then I came back and you loved me. you fucked me in that ship only to be kissing her on the same journey...' she took a deep breath. 'So sorry if I'm having a hard time getting over it when you are attached to her at the hip!' odie said marching off but jon grabbed her hand she spun back around grabbing his wrist in her opposite hand and bending his arm backwards. 'Don't. Touch. Me.' she said through gritted teeth.

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Tyrion came walking up alone then moments later Cersei and Jaime and their army marched with them

cersei approached Dani, everyone turning to face the two queens.

'My armies will not stand down I will not pull them back to the capital I will march them north to fight alongside you in the great war' cersei told her 'the darkness is coming for us all we will face it together and the great war is over perhaps you remember I chose to help no promises or assurances from any of you.' Cersei told them, she turned back to her men. 'Call our banners, all of them.'

'Good job Tyrion.' Odie said softly.

'You talk to him?' Tyrion noted the slight puffiness to her eyes. 'I assume it didn't go well... I'm sorry my dear.'

'Is what it is... I doubt I'm going to survive both wars anyway.' Odie added walking away.