I'm Not Your Secret

Can we talk?

After my very long and relaxing nap, I woke up to an empty bed again. "Eddie?" I called lut from the bedroom hoping he was still here. When I got no response, I decided to get up and go find him. In the kitchen there was a notes left on the side.
It read:
"Y/n, I've had to leave for a bit; clearing my head and stuff. Im also gonna pick up some dish soap because you don't have any. I want to talk when I get back if that's okay. Don't worry it's nothing bad, from Eddie x"

Even though he clearly stated that it was nothing bad it still made me nervous. Why would he have to leave so suddenly? What did he want to talk about? It's sweet that he tried to reassure me, even if my brain still is overthinking it. I paced back and forth nervously for a little while before deciding to make myself a cup of tea to calm down. Impatiently, I waited for the kettle to boil and I made my drink. I stared off into space as I drank it quickly and poured myself another one. After the second one, my stomach hurt a little so I decided to lay down on the sofa, which was probably not a good idea. I stared at the ceiling for what seemed like hours just over thinking and panicking before I heard a knock at the door and immediately went to answer it.

Smiling, I opened the door and it quickly dropped when I saw that Eddie was accompanied by Steve. Begrudgingly, I let the both in, knowing I would now have to not be affectionate around Eddie.

"So... Steve what are you doing here?" I asked him as we all sat on the sofa.
"Eddie came by to pick up a movie and asked if I wanted to come with." Steve told me.
My jealousy immediately kicked in and for no reason too! It's literally just Steve and Eddie likes me not him...right? "So what movie we watching?" I asked trying to ignore the fact that Eddie basically asked someone else to watch a movie with him.
"Oh, it's back to the future and I got the dish soap." Eddie told me and went to the kitchen to put it away.

Swiftly I joined him in the kitchen and pulled him to the bedroom as I called out to Steve, "be right back!" I turned to Eddie as I shut the door behind me, "what did to want to talk about Eddie?" I was quite stressed at this point and needed an answer.
"Y/n it's okay, we can talk about this later." Eddie tried to avoid talking about it.
"No, I want to talk about it now! It's stressing me out! It's scaring me that you said we need to talk then basically ask Steve out on a date." My voice was getting caught in my throat as I was making myself a little upset.
"It's just Steve and a movie that I want to watch with you." Eddie stated the obvious and yet my jealousy was overwhelming.
"But you've known Steve for so much longer than I have and the first thing I found out about you is that you used to flirt with him everyday." Subtle tears rolled down my face and I turned away from him, "I just... you make me feel safe and to see you with him is just so unsettling. I'm being dumb and jealous and gross! You know what forget it, enjoy your movie with steve I'll be in here." I didn't raise my voice at all because I wasn't mad. I just felt left out and replaced which scared me. I just don't want to be loved, used, abused and discarded again especially by Eddie.

He came up behind me and hugged me tightly. "Y/n, you know that you're the one I want right? You're the only one! And I only invited Steve because He recommended the movie and didn't want to be rude." Eddie kissed me on the head as he comforted me so well, "I want you to know that the thing I wanted to talk about was only about..." he got closer to my ear and whispered, "something fun I wanted to try."

I turned around to face him and looked up at his adorable face. "Oh yeah? What was it?"
He'd got me excited now and I wanted to know but Eddie being the tease that he is said seductively, "that's gonna have to wait till Steve goes home."
I rolled my eyes and kissed him with my arms hooked around his neck and his hands rested on my hips. It was a very long kiss and the serotonin flooded my brain. Nothing else mattered right now just me and my boyfriend making out in my bedroom with Steve standing in the door way.

Fuck Steve was standing in the door way!

"Steve! Oh my god! Do you not know how to knock?!" I shouted very shocked and stepped away from Eddie.
"Sorry!" Steve was in shock. "I'll just leave, you guys are clearly busy." He went to leave and I was about to go after him and apologise when Eddie pulled me back into the kiss and whispered, "let him go, it's just us now." Eddie kissed down my neck and said "that thing I wanted to try, did you want to know what it was?"
"Yes, Eddie! Tell me." I breathed out.
"I was thinking I could use these..."he tapped his handcuff belt, "and this..." he pulled a small switch blade out of his pocket. I looked down and my breath hitch and I gentle pushed him away.
"Knife play? Really?" I asked slightly scared but very excited.
"Only if you want to, Big boy." He whispered in my ear, sending shivers down my spine.
"Eddie please, you have no idea how much I want you right now and what you just did made you ten times hotter." I pleaded needly.

It was gonna be a great night!