I'm Not Your Secret

For fuck sake!

Eddie pushed me onto the bed behind me and started kissing all over me. I wanted him so bad and he clearly felt the same as his eyes were lust-blown. God it was attractive. I would let him do absolutely anything to me at this point and he would have if the phone didn't immediately ring.
I pushed Eddie off and shouted, "oh for fuck sake!" I sighed heavily and went to answer the phone. "What do you want?!" I said quite pissed off.
"Wow! No need to be so rude to your mother." The person on the phone said.
"What the fuck? Who is this?" I said hoping it wasn't who I already knew it was.
"Oh come on Y/n I've told you how bad your language is so many times."
"How did you get this number?" I was not having any of this.
"Doesn't matter but you should have told us why you left we could have gotten you some help. To fix you!"
"Fuck off this is why I left. Don't call back." I shouted down the phone and hung it back up. My head rested against the wall, I started to cry. I just had enough! It was all too much too soon! I moved to get away from my past and look at me! Not even a week in and having gay sex everyday. Eddie walked into the kitchen and saw me. He tried to hug me but I pushed him away every time just telling him to leave as if it was his fault. "Eddie go away... Fuck off!"
"Y/n you're not okay right now." Eddie tried to tell me.
"Yh I fucking know that! You've made me this thing! It's disgusting! Get out! You shouldn't be able to do this to people! It's sick!" Eddie was about to interrupt me but I shouted suddenly, "Get the fuck out! You made me a...a fag! Get out!" The tears streamed heavy down my face as it hurt to say it. Eddie looked clearly heartbroken. He had no choice other than to leave because if he would have said anything i would have just shouted more.

When the door closed behind him, i slid my back down the wall and put my head between my knees. The mix of guilt and confusion was making me sick and I couldn't handle it. It was no one's fault that I am the way I am. I really shouldn't have shouted or said those things, especially to Eddie. He only wanted the best for me.