Can't Trust Anyone (On Hold)

Chapter 17: We miss you

LIAM'S POV (didn't expect that now did yah ;) )

I can't believe this. I use to believe I was Angela's bestfriend but now....how could I never know she felt like this? So low that it came to eating disorders, cutting, taking unneeded pills. I thought Angela was the girl that walked in the room and made everything light up, she always seemed so happy, so In love with life. Who knew that she felt like this underneath that wide smile? I feel even worse then I did after agreeing that she can't date one of the boys but the thing is that Angela is such a amazing girl she can't have average she must have the best but the boys she likes just want to make a mockery of her innocence like harry for example he's a nice lad, attractive, cool, fun to be around, but he will fall to hard to fast and be a cling magnet plus he is a partyer and Ang needs a good boy. You see I use to think that i was so upset because Angela is like my little sister until I realized that I don't want her with any of the boys, or any boy for that matter. I want her with me.

"Liam you okay mate?" Zayn asked with worried eyes, I gave a slight nod signaling I'm fine

"I just miss the girls." I say truthfully

"You mean Asiana?"

Zayn playfully winked at me but he doesn't understand. I like Asia so much but she obviously has a thing for Louis and the saying goes "if you love someone let them go." So maybe if I get Angela to fall for me, and be with me Asia will get jealous! She will realize I'm the guy for her and leave Louis for another girl! I know I sound terrible because I do have a slight crush on Angela but she's no Asiana.

I smirked at my new ingenious plan while casually walking out of the house to get a few supplies for my future plans.

ZAYN'S POV

Well that was strange. Liam never gets this quiet or acts this out of it...oh well.

I really miss the girls. Asia left to go find Angela a while ago but even if Asia comes back with Angela things won't be the same...I mean I know Angela needs help but how could Asia just blurt out Angela's past? Dose she know how much that hurt Angie? I could tell by the hurt in her eyes just how sad, and broken she really is. Asia said it was all for attention but I find that hard to believe Angela is not like that she didn't want anyone to know so she didn't tell anyone how is that for attention? I think she needs to lay off Ang for a while...maybe Asia going after Ang was a bad idea..I wish Angela told me though. Ang use to trust me out of all of the guys to talk to because she knows I will only be there to help but never tell unless its a life or death matter but in this case...I don't know how hurt Angela is until I talk to her myself.

"I think I might head out to go find Ang, ill text you if I find her alright?"

With that I walked out the door and onto the sidewalk pulling out a pack of smokes as I begin my search for Angie. You know she always told me that it was kind of sexy that I smoke. I smiled at the thought, and continued my walk hopefully the girls will show up soon.

HARRY'S POV

I feel like this is all my fault. I should have stood up for Ang, and I! Of course I want a relationship with Angela she is smart, funny, hot, and so much more but I feel like we are complete opposites almost as if the world doesn't want us together. Louis is my over all best friend though and I don't think that he would be happy about me trying to get with Ang...plus he knows what I'm like, he knows what I will want not that I'm a sex addict but I like to have fun, and like I said Angela is fit as hell so if she is willing I will be as well.

I kind of have a thing with this model at the moment though....she's really nice, and natural her name is Cara I've been linked with her before but we are just now beginning to hang out....I'm off topic now aren't I? Zayn just left to search for the girls I'm sure everything will be fine soon.

LOUIS POV

I am so confused right now. How could Angela do this to herself? I'm so angry and confused on why she would feel the need to physically harm herself because she thinks she has a rough life. News flash I'm here. Me, the boys, Asiana, we all love Angela to such an extent that words can not describe! How can Angela think that we don't love her? She's practically my sister I would take a bullet for her if I needed to. We all tell her we love her, we all talk about how much she means to us, how much of joy it is when she comes into the room with her sweet, bubbly personality. Is she fake? Maybe I don't even know my cousin at all anymore. What happened to the sweet, innocent, loving, carefree girl I use to know? I want that girl back. Who gives a rats ass about what people think of you? All that matters is what you think of yourself and with her cutting she's showing that she doesn't give a fuck and she hates herself. She is letting all the jerkoffs win and hold her back while she could just be herself with the people that care, and love her the most.

NIALL'S POV

This is all my fault. Not only at this point on time I could have been with Angela if I didn't make Asia strip in truth or dare but I could be comforting her while she is so down. I really don't understand what she sees when she looks in the mirror because I see a stunning girl that may not be a toothpick but has sexy curves, and a beautiful face. I see a girl hiding behind all of her pain her walls are built so high even though she herself is crumbling down. She needs a hero and I want to be her Prince Charming, the one that sweeps her off of her feet and takes care of her, I want her to know how much I love her, possibly how much I am in love with her. I want her to realize how special she is to me because without her I would be lost in a world of hate. Why would she pop pills? I know she is a smart girl, I know she is hurt but all her life no one has been there for her. Her parents are gone, Lou and us lads are always on the road, Asiana has Corey I think Angela needed a little bit of attention when no one was there to give it to her she did that in sadness hopping someone would care. Why would she have an eating disorder? Her body is beautiful, her curves turn me on, her lips so plump and pink I can taste the coconut lip balm from here. Her hands so soft, so gentle, her skin as if a newborn baby's bum. Her hair, I would just love to tangle my fingers in her hair as she rests her head on my chest listening to my unsteady heartbeat as she causes it to race. Her legs are amazing she really has nothing to be ashamed of, sure she doesn't have a thy gap but who wants a skinny girl when you can have an amazing girl in a normal size? She is the jelly to my donut. Her face is so unique, so pretty I find myself in a trance every time my eyes graze apon it. Why would she cut? I really can't explain why she would cut but I do know that she is insecure for no reason. I want Angela to be mine once and for all. I won't fuck it up this time I just need a chance.

-Angela XX