Soulmates mates 4life

night and day

"Mom no, mom come back please mom no mom" hope was mumbling in her sleep it was a pretty normal thing for her to have nightmares 

"Please don't die mom please come back I need you" she mumbles out

"Hope, hey hope wake up" josie said trying to calmly wake hope up

I jump looking around the room trying to remember where I am, my eyes landing on the brunette in front of me, josie is staring at me with such concern in her eyes

"Hope I'm right here you're okay" josie says sweetly still trying to calm hope down

I sit up bringing my knees to my chest my mind is still replaying the images through my head and I know I'm shaking but I can't seem to catch my breath

"Hope tell me what you need how I can help" josie says moving right beside hope

"i can't... I can't bre breath" I manage to get out

"Hope look at me" josie grabs my hands

"Breath with me hope in and out" josie says

"i I can't" I know I must sound like a baby right now but my chest was feeling so tight "help me please josie" I manage to get out in between shaky fast breaths

"Okay hope look at me please I'm going to help you need to think of something else anything else just try and control your breathing"

I'm looking at her but my mind is blank I can feel my chest tightening more and before I can speak

Soft lips are on mine, josie is kissing me, I freeze for a second realizing I'm not kissing back, I close my eyes and lean in to the kiss with as much intensity as josie is giving me. It not a ruff kiss or a sexual kiss more of a passionate kiss, I can feel the butterflies in my stomach, my heart strings pulling every nerve in my body. This isn't how I pictured our first kiss together, not that I'd ever pictured us kissing but this feels amazing.

Josie finally breaks the kiss finally feeling hope calm down and now needing some air herself, the two girls staring at each other intensely

As I'm looking into josies eyes I finally catch my breath, letting my mind calm down to.

"How did you do that" I ask still wrapping my mind around the fact we just kissed

Josie doesn't break eye contact for a second "I uhm I read once that holding your breath can stop a panic attack so uhm" I notice her lick her lips "when I kissed you, you held your breath" josie says almost like she's also trying to catch her breath

"Oh, I did" I whisper

"Yeah, you did" she whispers back

We stay like this for a few more minutes not saying anything or breaking eye contact

"Thanks, that was um really smart" I tell her

Josie finally backs away sitting beside me "thanks I just read it somewhere, uhm if I was really smart id tell you to sign up for a few more sessions with Emma when we get back to school" she says kind of punching me in the arm

I shake my head kind of laughing at her "yeah maybe"

"So do you want talk about your dream, why it caused you to have a panic attack" she finally asks me

I stay silent not wanting to talk about it

"You don't have to If you don't want to, I won't push you to do something you're not ready to" she says drawing comforting circles on my back

I'm trying to focus on my words but her touch is sending shivers through my body and all I can think about is leaning over and kissing her again, it's only been a few minutes and I miss the feeling of her lips on mine