My Mafia Mate

chapter fifteen

I sat there lost for words my head spun his words repeated in my head tears rolled down my cheeks my head hurt my heart ached I needed to leave i needed to do something

"Sarah say something "

I turned to look at the half empty plate I then spoke up

"Lucifer what can I say ? You've chosen her against me there's nothing I can do if you care about me ... If you even have a heart in you let me go there's no need for me to be here your just gonna kill me and Freya to watch her take our place ?" He sat there looking at me attentively he raised his hand to touch mine but recoiled when I pulled my hands to my chest

"I'm sorry but ... Its for the best " my eyes widen when I turned to face him my eyes now burning with pain and hurt

"A choice it's funny I wish I had being given a choice from day one I never wanted to be mated to you and yet look at it " he opened his mouth to say something but closed it

I smiled as tears streamed down my cheeks I wiped them with the back of my palm sliding down the stool before glancing one last look at him

"I thought so" i added and walked to my room hugging my shoulder

I immediately threw myself onto the bed when I screamed into the pillow all of my pain ... My rage I hated my fate I hated my life I hated the fact my mafia mate was cold hearted

After an hour of crying I dozed off

I woke up to a knock on my door

I ignored the first but then my door opened slowly letting out a scary creeking sound

"Sarah?" I instantly got the scent of my mate ?

I slowly rise on my elbows looking at lucifer walk into my room shirtless with a  PJ pants on his toned chest showing off in the moonlight which peeked into my room

He walked up to my bed side and sat down

"What do you want ?" I asked looking away from him he then grabbed me by my chin forcing me to look at him his eyes turning black his piercing gaze made me squirm

"What do you want lucifer ?" I asked looking into his now black orbs

"You" that word made my stomach flutter my palms sweat my throat close my cheeks burn my eyes twitch

"Well it's a little to late because I don't want you "

Saying that made my heart ache I knew it was lies but he can't keep playing mind games with me his stone cold heart made it clear his announcing Olivia as his mate and he wants me to watch it watch him grow a family with her watch me spending his free time with her I could possibly say I hated the moon goddess for choosing me as his mate I am nothing but a weakling the only thing strong about me is my wolf Freya without her I'd surely be killed

"Sarah don't say that okay ...I'm a fool I can't be with you ... You don't belong in my world it's dangerous for you and for me I can't possibly be thinking of mating with you when I have so many enemies who want me dead if I announce Olivia as my mate they might kill her yes but I wouldn't hurt it wouldn't kill me but you ... Your my mate "

Tears streamed down my cheeks I shut my eyes and opened it again pushing his hand off my face

"So this is all about me being safe ? You don't care for me you don't care for anyone but yourself how do you think I feel and worst your keeping me here lucifer the best thing you could do was let me return home don't keep me here please " he kept quite looking at me the word unsure written all over his face

"I can't .." he then stood up to leave

"You cant?" I said laughing hysterically tears dripping down my chin