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A bit of a confession

Hey guys, gals, and non-binary pals, I have a bit of a confession to make. Maybe confession is the wrong word, but I need to get a few things off my chest.

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So, basically, I think that I might have had the beginnings of an eating disorder. I would say that I wasn't hungry, but sometimes I was actually hungry. I don't even know why I started, maybe because I thought I was fat, but now, due to band camp, I feel like I can eat more. This is mainly because of how much work we do in band camp, so I need to eat to keep up my strength. I've kinda been struggling a bit with my body image, but I feel better now. Not totally gone, but better.

Which brings me to my next thing. I think that I'm non-binary. The label fits well, and I've had a few of the things that people say can be signs that you are non-binary. I haven't told anyone except my mom and a few friends. I have to use she/her at home, due to my dad, and it kinda hurts. I like they/them much better. Also, dysphoria sucks a$$. Mine will randomly come on in a really strong wave, and only subside if I can focus on something really hard.

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I just kinda wanted to get these thoughts down into words. It kind of makes me feel better. So, this was basically me coming out to all of you about who I am. Also, I apologize for not uploading more chapters on my other book. I've been busy and have had next to no motivation due to being exhausted from band camp.