𝘙𝘦𝘥 & 𝘉𝘳𝘰𝘸𝘯'𝘴 𝘈𝘥𝘷𝘦𝘯𝘵𝘶𝘳𝘦

𝐌𝐞𝐬𝐬𝐲 𝐁𝐫𝐨𝐨𝐤

Finn looked at me with his eyes widened. He was too shocked to say anything. All he was doing was looking at me with tears rolling down my face. I just couldn't stop crying.

A few seconds later when Finn finally processed what was going on, he wrapped his arms around me and comforted me. I still couldn't believe that happened to me. I was devastated. He looked up at me and hushed me. because when I cry too much, I will start having a panic attack and there are some chances I will pass out. He stroked my back until my breathing was steady again. He let go of me and told me it was okay.

"I'm so sorry you had to went through that. I didn't know these things could've happened to you. I'm sure Sadie will underst-" When I heard the name "Sadie," I started crying again REALLY hard. I just couldn't understand how Sadie will leave me like that without letting me explain. It was an awful feeling. Nobody has ever hurt me this much before. It definitely cut deep. It was like she cut opened a wound and when she left me, she soaked it in lemon juice. It was a deep wound. I cried onto Finn's shoulder for about 10 minutes until I finally started to slow down. Finn looked at me and assure me I would be okay. 

"We can't stay here and be depressed." Finn changed his position towards me so he was staring right at me. "We should hang out with our friends ! Maybe go to a cinema or something ? There's plenty of stuff we can do." Finn said excitedly. I showed him my phone screen of half of the Stranger Things casts being disgusted at me. Them not knowing the truth was hurtful. I wanted to scream and shout and let it all out. But I couldn't. I wasn't in the mood of getting up and explaining it to everyone and crying again. So I just stayed in bed scrolling on Tik Tok when I already see hate edits of me for "cheating" on Sadie. 

My eyes were puffy and red. My nose was pink along with my cheeks and ears. I was so tired. I used all of my energy on crying. It sucked being like this. I had no energy to get out of bed. The only time I got out of bed was to go to the bathroom. Which barely happened because I didn't drink or eat anything. Finn was coming into my room to check on me every 30 minutes. But I told him to leave me alone. I know he was trying to care for me but I just wanted the time alone right now. I couldn't see anyone's face. I decided tomorrow when I get better, I will post on Instagram. Since I haven't posted for a very long time and most of my fans were asking me if I was okay. 

As I spent my time laying in bed with my phone in my hand and staring at the ceiling underneath my blanket, It was already 10 P.M. I couldn't stand being awake any longer so I swallowed my sleeping pills with water and I immediately went to sleep. I didn't wake up until it was 11 A.M. I woke up and started rubbing my eyes. I stopped after a while because it started hurting the cause of my puffy eyes. I got out of bed and stared at myself in the mirror. I looked like a mess. My face was like a tomato and my eyes were like a balloon. My hair was a bird's nest and my clothes were all dirty. I went out of my room and went straight to the bathroom. I hopped into the shower and got myself cleaned up. After I dried myself with a towel, I got into a hoodie with short pants and added strong eye drops to my eyes. I ate some vitamin gummies and went downstairs to see Finn cooking breakfast. Which was VERY rare since he would usually be eating cereal or the food I make him. I went into the kitchen and popped a half smile at him.

"Feeling better ?" He asked me with a worried expression. "A little." I said while whispering under my breath. I was still messy on the inside but I tried to ignore that part. 

"Whatcha making ?" I asked him while furrowing one of my eyebrows. I never knew this man could cook. "Nothing special, just egg and bacon. I stare at him in shock. I was so proud to be looking at him cook. "What- oh come on, it's not that surprising. "Mhmm." I nodded my head as he slowly placed the food onto the plate and gave it to me. "Thanks," "No problem younger sister." He said with a smirk because I don't like when people call me the youngest sibling. It's annoying. Because I'm pretty much sure I'm more mature than Finn. I grabbed my plate and placed it on the table near the couch and turned on the TV. I started watching Modern Family as usual. I posted a post of me eating the food Finn cooked me and it immediately blew up. I ignored all notifications since I was eating. I was gonna check them later though. Finn sat next to me as he ate his food. He was slurping his orange juice loudly so I elbowed him. He stared at me with a confused look on his face until I stared at his orange juice while looking back at him. He rolled his eyes and stopped slurping it loudly. We continued watching Modern Family until we watched like 3 episodes. I realized that I was too focused on TV and started getting up to wash our dishes. I grabbed our plates off the table and walked to the sink. 

I turned on the water and started washing the dishes. After I was done I grabbed my phone from the living room table and went up to my room to check my Instagram post. 

Sorry I haven't been posting much ! I will post 2 chapters today to make it up to you guys. I just have been pressured to do so many things that I got tired of writing this story. But one way or another, I will keep writing it until I'm done. So even if I'm gone, just remember I will be back soon. Love you guys <3

-Author/ Destinee