-Dream- (Kimchay Short Story)

Guy of my dreams PT.2

Kim's POV

"Good, because all the bad things I've forgotten them all"

He lied.

Just like I did to him.

He's an open book to me, all the times we were together he shows his true feelings with me.

I admit that even though he's always been a complete vivid person when it comes to his feelings, he had done a great job hiding it for today.

If I hadn't looked clearly at his eyes, I would have believed him right away. But right now, I don't believe what he said to me at all, even though I always believed in whatever he is saying to me.

I always do.

"Mhm good"

No, nothing is good. I want you to stop lying to yourself.

Find someone who loves you the way you love me.

You don't deserve to be with someone like me, I'm just a jerk who can't admit his feelings.

I don't deserve you, Porchay.

I gazed into his eyes trying my best not to show my emotions. I can read his eyes longing for me the moment my eyes landed with them. Those eyes used to be so happy, now they looked too gloomy.

I'm sorry, you're in love with an asshole.

Back when we were still together, I plan to only use him. And when he's in no longer use, I'll just leave him like any other guys. But him, he was different. He put his all in everything he do with me.

All his efforts, wasn't a waste. I was shaken by him. He gave my world colors, he made my life happier.

And what did I do? I took all of the colors he gave me and took him for granted. I caused him pain because of my ego.

I want to love him freely, but it's too late right now. I've already took everything from him and left him broken just like that.

And so, being a coward as I am I started to drift off from him.

I'm afraid if I stay here, I couldn't help it anymore and take him there. Hug and kiss him.

From the bottom of my heart, I know how much I wanted to ask for forgiveness.

If only I could–

"P'kim"

Chay muttered under his breath.

My name that came from his voice was so soft that it is barely audible to hear.

I was frozen in my spot, I didn't know what to do anymore...