DON'T (INSERT WORD)

Part 1

I was never really interested in making money, I've always felt like money wasn't something to overvalue and to be risking lives for. Nowadays people are just like, if you slap your mum I'll give you five dollars, or if you kiss this guy I'll give you 12 dollars. Some even say if you don't brush your teeth for 2 months I'll give a 100 bucks.

Is all that really worth it?

Is disrespecting your mother worth earning $5? You can easily spend $5 in 5 minutes or less, so why would you freaking do that?

Well, that's what I thought until the night my parents died, it wasn't a natural death but a plane crash. They just visited my brother in Italy at his college and on their way back home to Atlanta they you know, yeah.

After I found out, after I cried my eyeballs out, after attempted suicides, I realized that there was no point in sitting there doing nothing, I had to fend for myself, pay my bills, rent and for school.

Now tell me, where the HECK is a 15 year old meant to get all that money from?

That's where all those ridiculous things start to reappear in my head, I quickly wipe away those thoughts. Yeah I wanted to get money, but I wasn't really willing to die in the process.

I'm thankful that this incident didn't make me miss school but then I wasn't always the best with grades. Now, I have to get the best grade in my school so that I can get a scholarship or else school bills will be on my list.

Do you know the funniest but not so funny thing?

My brother doesn't know that I'm living alone, he knows our parents are gone but then he thinks I'm with a relative. Sorry to disappoint you bro, but I just can't suffer domestic abuse living with relatives. I've heard so much stories about it from friends, books and movies. And I can't take the risk.

I don't know the vibe I'm going to give off in school tomorrow, am I going to be rude to my fellow sophomores or will I continue to be bubbly and social?

I feel like I need to concentrate, I can't flunk in school just because of the happiness of others. This statement is about to go way out of my values but then their happiness isn't going to provide for me, at least not now.

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Going to school without my parents, going to school without a car, going to school without breakfast and finally going to school with no idea of where the bus stop is. I can't say I was living the perfect rich girl life before I lost my parents, I was actually living a slightly above average girl life.

I'm not broke, I can still buy basic essentials but I'm not buy yourself-a-car rich. I'm presently having a 25 minutes walk to school due to my lack of knowledge of the bus stop location.

So, once I get to the school I'm in no mood to talk due to all the energy I just lost. I'm so happy that I left my house earlier or else I would have been late.

Third period ends in about 5 minutes and no one has talked to me, it's not like I want them to, it's just unusual. No one knows about my current situation so I wasn't really expecting people to treat me differently.

Stupid me, it was first three periods, after break they started to talk. Friend groups started to form, but I decided to stay on my own, in my seat, with me, myself and I. I honestly swear, it felt like the whole class, excluding my teacher, stopped every single thing they were doing just to look at me.

Their eyes were like 'Excuse me, Kylie why aren't you here right now' or 'Kylie you are literally missing out on the latest gossip ever.' You get the gist right?