Behind The Scenes | Austin Butler Smut

Chapter 5: I'm yours 🔞

~ months later ~

Austin and I have known each other for a while now, and even though we haven't known each other for a ton of time, we're close. I'm just glad there are so many people on set and so much to do that no one notices. The movie comes out in a little more than a year, and we're beginning to wrap things up.  There's a scene where Elvis goes around and kisses about 50 women, and I was asked to be an audience member in that scene. Of course, I said yes, but I don't know how I'm going to handle it. Austin and I aren't official yet, but I know I'm going to get jealous.

I got a new fancyish dress. I went in and did the usual. I  put on my costume, did my makeup had the hairstylist do my hair, and got seated in the audience to shoot the scene. He was doing amazing and everything was okay, at first I almost forgot about all the kissing in the scene. But when it happened, my heart fell to my feet. I felt weak with tears in my eyes, even though I knew deep down inside it was just acting, and he hadn't been with any of these women, I couldn't stop myself from crying. One after the next, after the next, after the next. We shot that scene a few times and I started to become a little desensitized to it.

Right, when the scene ended I ran to the dressing room put a poncho over my dress, so it wouldn't get wet, and ran to the bathroom to wash all my makeup off with cold water in hopes of also getting rid of my red eyes. Then hopefully no one would notice that I had been crying, especially Austin.

I know it's not his fault and I know this is his job and I know he would never want to make me  feel this way, but I just can't help but cry. Even though once again we haven't made it official, I can't help but feel like he's cheating on me. Honestly, I don't know how Priscilla did it.
We were done for the day due to it being such a huge scene. I changed out of my costume and left. Austin normally takes me home, but I just couldn't handle seeing him right now. I took one of the last buses to my stop and walked the rest of the way to my house. I arrive and decide I should eat something since  I had been too nervous to eat anything else that day, feeling like I would throw it up immediately.

I just decided to have a granola bar and some water to get something in my stomach. I change into some fuzzy pajama pants and a tank top and sit on the couch, cuddled with a blanket. I sit my phone face down and turned on the TV. I decided to watch cartoons, since childhood cartoons always make me feel better. I decided on Regular Show and watched that for a little bit and laughed my ass off. I forgot about everything for a second until I heard a knock on my door. I put on my robe and answered it, it was Austin.

"Hey!" I said putting on my best happy face.

"Hey. Why did you leave without me?" He questioned.

"I was just tired and wanted to get home as fast as I could, that's all." I lied.

Like I said earlier, I'm a horrible liar, and he read right through me.

"Is this about the scene we did today?" he asked.

"No of course not" I lied even harder, "I know it's your job and that's what you have to do.".

"So you aren't jealous?" He questioned.

"No!" I spat, "why would you even ask me that? A little shallow of you, don't you think?".

"You're right," he says apologizing, "I'm sorry".

I stood there in silence, I wanted to be honest with him, even if it meant him leaving and never talking to me again. I don't want to start this relationship off with lies. I want him to know the truth.

"Actually." I began "I don't know if jealous is the right word to use, it kind of is, but I felt more so betrayed like you were cheating on me?".
I stared at him for a couple of seconds.
"And I know that this is your job, and you have to, and you don't actually like all these women, but I don't know why I feel so sick. And I'm not blaming YOU, it's just... I don't know. I didn't want to tell you because I didn't what to make things weird or maybe make you feel bad or awkward, but it's better than lying to you. If you don't know what to say, I understand just, don't leave." I say of catching my breath.
Seconds later, he immediately embraces me in a tight hug.