As a kid I always thought that boyfriends were pointless and stupid. However when I met him I understood why people chose to love. I remember how when I was with you my heart just warmed up. Everything we hugged how my head would rest against your chest hearing your heart beat. Feeling protected feeling as if nothing in the world can harm me. Or when we kissed everything else all the stress would just erase from my mind. I loved when we would go on dates only both of us it felt like if the world revolves around us. But when you left that was the hardest part. You destroyed me. You telling that it was the right person just wrong time. Because I felt like as if that's false since we would make it work. I never wanted to see you with another girl. Because as possessive it may sound your mine and I only want you with me. No matter how hurt you made me that day I knew that I wanted you back more than anything in the world. But when you came back things didn't feel the same anymore. It felt to forced. I didn't exactly feel the love. So maybe in another life time if we're really meant to be. Maybe it may hurt to leave and move on. But it can be a good thing. However sometimes I should take my old advice. Instead of sitting around and waiting for a change waiting for you to love me how you used to. It feels exhausting waiting for you I know that you loving me again is almost the impossible. But somewhere deep into my mind I still think there is a possibility for us to be like we used to.
