eddie's girl

hangout with eddie and steve

TW/SH/WEED/VAPE/CUSSING/ PILLS
... all of my razor blades. his face changes. eddie think why does she do this.
i walk back it
he closes the drawer fast.
" ok here's your water sir" i say
" you don't hav ego call me sir y/n" eddie says
i just look away and don't talk. i pick of my nic and hit it. eddie grabs my hands
" love are you ok" he ask
" yes" i say trying not to cry
" ok i'm here if you need to talk." he says
" ok. wanna watch a movie tho?" i ask
" yes princess" he says
we turn on grown ups. we cuddle until the movies over.
" that was funny but i should get going my uncle is waiting for me" he says
" aww ok i'll see you tomorrow?" i ask
" yes" he says
i walk him down stairs. and give him a hug goodbye. i walk back up stairs to take my jacket off. no one's home so i just buy on boxers and a white crop top. I grab my coffee vape, and head down stairs. when i get down stairs i hear a knock. i didn't like of anything tho so i just answered.
" steve?" i say
" steve what are you doing here" i ask
" i came to see you... me and Nancy broke up" he says
" omg i'm sorry come in" i say
he walks in and looks around, but almost the second he walked in he looked at my thighs and arms.
" wha wha what's of your thighs. and your arms" steve says worried
" it's nothing don't worry about it" i say
" you can tell me i won't tell anyone" he says
" swear" i say
" swear" he says
" when i was little my dad left me because of my mom. she was super rude to my dad. she would act like he had hit her, but he didn't. so my mom took me my older sister marie and my middle sister hope. after 2 years of them not together. my mom became really abusing me. she would hit me when she was mad, or just because. she still does it today. my older dustier right when she hit 18 left us. i cried for 2 years. i was only 14 when she left us. my middle shister committed when i was 16 and she was 18. i can't stop thinking about it. then after all that my mom came really abuse me. then she found some one who was even more abusive. my step dad. at night he would rape me until he couldn't. my mom never really cared. my mom would put of cigarettes on my arm or anything she could light up. i hate my mom and my step dad but there's nothing really i can do." i say almost about to cry
" when did you do that to your arms and thighs" he says crying a little
" 12" i say now crying just a little
" does he still do that to you" he ask not crying even more
" no it stopped after my sister found out. but she can't tell anyone bc then i'll get put somewhere else. so this is my way to cope. vaping and self harm" i say crying
steve's face changes. i feel bad. why'd i do this. why'd i make it about me. all i could feel was a hug. a tight hug. i looked back and saw steve crying. trying not to tho.
" thank you steve. sorry i made it about me. you and nancy broke up. tell ''em about it"i say
steve didn't let go of the hug. didn't even say anything.
" i'm going to go. i'll tell you tomorrow y/n" he says
" steve i'm sorry that i fucked shit up. please don't be mad at me" i say
" i'm not y/n. i just feel bad for you . i do have to go tho so i love you y/n" steve says
" i love you to harrington" i say laughing
he laughs then just walks out. i go back upstairs and put my hair in a bun. just to get it out my face. i go back upstairs and watch tv and chill.
night time has come. so i get into my black sweats and white crop top long sleeve. i put all my vapes in my drawer, and with my wax. i turn off my tv. i put my head phones in, and turn on music, and i fall asleep after 15 minutes.