Anxiety

Unprepared

"Okay who's next? Ah yes, Tomlinson."
I look up from my desk and notice everyone is looking at me. It feels like everyone's judging me, whispering to each other about how terrible and weird I am.

I stand up from my place and slowly walk towards the front of the room with my paper in my hand. My heart pounds loudly in my chest, So loudly that it's the only thing I truly hear. I get to the front and stand paralyzed looking back to a class filled with incoherent teenagers.

"And may you tell us what famous poem you've chosen Mr. Tomlinson?" My mouths dry and I'm too scared to even speak. "Mr. Tomlinson the whole class is waiting, please tell us the name of your poem or stop waisting our time and get an F on this simple task." I look down to the ground and softly begin to speak.

"I've chosen... "Touched by an Angel- By Maya Angelou" It becomes hard to breath and I feel as if I'm about to pass out, my throats closing up and I feel a burning sensation behind my eyes.

"Alright, proceed to read out loud one stanza of the poem." I simply nod with my face still looking down and begin.

"We are weaned from our timidity
In the flush of love's light
we dare be brave
And suddenly we see
that love costs all we are
and will ever be.
Yet it is only love
which sets us free."

The room fills with multiple applause and I hurry back to my seat, my comfort zone. "Lovely choice Louis, next time please face your audience and your presentation will be flawless." I nod, and look around to make sure no one is no longer staring at me.

"Now Miss. Fitzgerald, all attentions on you." I look up once again to see the most gorgeous girl I've seen in my whole life. Long dirty blonde straight hair, golden innocent eyes, and the most precious smile to exist.

I became so infatuated by her as soon as I laid my eyes on her. How could I have not noticed her sooner? Oh wait I forgot, I'm a shy stuttering moron who isn't even confident enough to simply read a poem out loud. I wonder if she's ever noticed me? Who am I kidding, even if she has I'm most likely not her type. I don't have good looks, I'm not smart, and I'm almost completely invisible to everyone. I'm sure if she met Harry she'd be all over him and not me. Harry's my best mate and all, but everyone knows him. He's the popular athlete, while I'm the nerdy artist. I lay my head down on my desk and begin to day dream while staring at her.

The bell rings and I gather all my things, I turn my head towards her only to realize she's looking at me. She gives me a smile and waves goodbye as she's walking out the door. I couldn't help but smile and yes blush at the fact that she knows I exist.

As I stamper out into the hall I put my earbuds in. Music distracts me from all the bullshit going on out there. Instead of going to lunch I go out of the building. Today, well most days aren't the best. Until her...

I take out the rolled doobie from my bag and light it up. Ahh happy times, I needed this. I take my last puff and put it out before I go back inside.

"Lou my man!" I turn around and spot Harry. "Hey Harry, how's it going?" He looks at me and a smile creeps up. "Louis you're high as fuck right now aren't you?" I burst out into hysterics and nod. "Is it... That noticeable? Fuck man." He continues laughing while I just stand there completely calm. "Yeah, typically our eyes aren't red." I shake my head. "I'll just say it's my contacts... Or something like that. "

"Geez you must be really stoned hu? You're wearing glasses." Harry's laughter lessens as a school administrator passes by. I look down just so she won't notice my red dilated eyes. As I see that she's completely gone, I let out a giggle. "I'll think of something don't worry." Harry walks over to his locker and takes out a book. "I'll see you last period Lou, and uh save some for me so we can hang after school and have something to do." He walks off and I wave goodbye.

Fourth period bell rings and the halls are once more filled by people, I hurry and get my evolution textbook and walk to class. I'm in no rush, and could honestly care less for the class. All I hear is a bunch of butt hurt religious people complain, seriously if you didn't want the class then I don't know don't fucking chose it next semester?

Sadly I get to class on time. Just 60 minutes and you're gone Louis. Plus, you're as high as a kite and nothing can feel better. Just as I said that to myself she walks in. I legitimately thought I only had one class with her but I was wrong, I was unprepared when she walked in and took the seat beside me. She noticed me again and smiled, I melted a little inside as I smiled back at her.

"Hey, is this seat taken?" I couldn't assure you what kind of look I had on my face but I could describe it as a possible combination of confusion and stupidity by the look she gave me. "Oh.. uhm n-no. It's not." She sits down and places her things near mine.

"I'm Landon Fitz, well Fitzgerald but I prefer Fitz." She sticks her small delicate hand out for me to shake. "I'm Louis, Louis Tomlinson but my friends call me Lou." I tell her as I shake her hand, just like I figured soft and delicate. "How come I've never seen you before Louis?" I look at her and look down. "I dont know, I'm kind of invisible really. I've never seen you either, why I haven't is unexplainable since you're beautiful."

Oh no. I let it slip, now she thinks I'm weird oh fuck me. A small giggle escapes her lips. "Thank you, you're very cute Lou may I add." That's it. I'm going to marry her. But instead of telling her that, I thank her and become quiet as the teacher begins the lesson.

After what felt like an eternity pass by the bell finally rings. I gather my things and say bye to Landon but before I leave she stops me. "Here's my number, call if you want to sometime." She hands me a small slip of paper and picks her books up. I immediately begin to blush and run onto my last and final class. Seems like things are going my way for once.

A/N: please point out spelling or punctuation errors via message board. I want to make this understandable for everyone as well enjoyable. Hope you like my first story and first chapter. Lots of love❤️