robin buckley one shots

you changed... [ part 1 ]

tw — sightly nsfw, bullying, language??

august 22, 1976

i was at the playground, running around when I fell over a taller girl than me, she wore blue torn shorts and a white weird shirt, she turned around to look at me "what's your deal- oh my god are you okay?" at first i was scared to talk to her and struggled to find words to say "i- uh I am fine i was just having... fun... why were you about to yell at me" she looked at me again "many boys in this town annoy me all the time they keep making fun of me and punching me, I thought you were one of them" she laughed

"do you wanna be friends..?" i asked her

"yeah that would be cool, I'm robin ! you can call me rob, it's my fav nickname" she smiled

"cool" :D

april 26, 1986

i was walking around my room, how could I be so fuckin stupid to turn out being one of the popular kids, and for what? because i wanted to stop being bullied? funny. "a freak is always a freak" that's what jason told me, repeatedly

i wish i could go back in time and never tried to be someone i could never be, I almost ruined my friendship with robin

flashpack

"why? Why did you thought being a popular kid will make you a better person?" robin said

"i had hope i will stop getting bullied, but it's the same attitude from other popular kids, I tried robin, I tried to be normal multiple times but i just.. I can't take this anymore"

"what are you trying to say?" she looked confused

"a freak is always a freak buckley, we are both freaks, and weird, no one will ever understand these people, not in the way we do... i have suffered my whole life"

she came closer cupping my cheeks "ill make sure everything will be okay and you won't have to worry... i will help you survive this town" without even thinking, forgetting we were on the back room of family video, i grabbed her from her suspenders and kissed her, my mind was empty and i wasn't thinking, she kissed back and my hands moved to her neck as she went down kissing my neck, i sightly moaned, then she pulled up my shirt, I stopped her "what are we doing? why are we" i paused staring at her... as i... i runaway

i was in love with her the whole time??

A/N : yea you were
*end of flashback*

maybe i should never have kissed her, but she liked it, it seemed like it, she kissed back, she kissed my neck and pulled up my shirt, am I attracted to this? for real, it makes sense, I never found males attractive

maybe i should never have tried to be popular and normal, I should just accept the fact i am a freak... a freak nerd with a weird attitude