their endless melody

chapter 2

TW: sh

Dazai got out of bed, brushed his teeth, didn't brush his hair, took his pills, skipped breakfast and wore his uniform, while he was about to leave the house he saw his dads note "buy some beer i will be back by 11am" dazai sighed and walked out, while he was walking he kept staring at his bandages like crazy like something would change, as he was walking and didn't watch where he was going he bumbed into chuuya and his guitar "Watch where you going-! Oh its you" chuuya helped dazai got up and grabbed his guitar from the floor "what were you looking at?" Dazai gave chuuya a small, soft smile "nothing" he said as they both walked to school.

"Chuuya, do u have a pen?" Yosano whispered to chuuya "ask ranpo I only have the one I'm using he has a dozen" dazai stared at his bandages again as they got a little bloody 'shit' chuuya looked at him confused as he hid his arm "Mr can I go to the bathroom?" Dazai ran to the bathroom as he tried to hide the blood that was spreading and got his bandages more bloody "shit shit shit" as he was trying to stop the blood someone entered the bathroom "d-dazai?" Dazai stared at chuuya in panic "Go away!" he yelled at him, chuuya walked slowly closer "shhh im here to h-help alright" dazai with tears running down his eyes and ran in the toilet and shut the door as he was shaking and having a panic attack "No no this wasn't supposed to happen, I thought they healed, no no no" chuuya tried to open the door and sighed "dazai open the door i promise I can help, I just want to help you I swear to God" dazai was tearing up "How do I know that?!" Dazai started crying even harder "I'm chuuya, your friend, friends help each other, please dazai" thought about it for a second and slowly opened the door, chuuya leaned close to dazai and gently took his arm "okay we have to clean this, wait a minute" chuuya ran to the nurse took some medicine and bandages and ran back to dazai "alright this may hurt so take a deep breath" chuuya softly cleaned dazai's wounds and put bandages on them "see? Its no big deal don't cry-" before chuuya could continue dazai fell to his arms hugging him tightly and not letting go "dazai?" Dazai didn't answer, he kept crying into chuuyas arms "shhhh im here don't worry" chuuya petted dazais head and took him into a soft hug.

"Yosano go to the drums I wanna try something" chuuya grabbed his guitar as yosano got prepared to play "what are we playing?" Chuuya smiled and replied "just follow my lead" chuuya started playing like a maniac and feel good, he felt music in his veins something that he hadn't felt for a while but then remembered the last time he felt like that.

1 year ago

"Chuuya you can do this. We can do this, if you do a mistake don't worry about it I will cover it up, so don't worry alright" albatross smiled to him and grabbed his hand tightly "dont worry chuuya" he said and ran to the stage with chuuya, holding hands, he nobbed and grabbed his guitar "lets do this" the both had their guitars to their hands, next to each other the started playing, after albatross smiled to chuuya he felt free, he felt comfortable, he didn't felt anxious anymore, he just played like it was only albatross, him and yosano, he felt nice but then that day got destroyed. The next hours were a disaster and something terrible was about to happen.

"Chuuya? Chuuya! What happened? Chuuya!" Yosano kept yelling at him but he couldn't listen, they only thing that he was thinking was albatross, his sweet smile, how he was annoying him everyday, the little things he loved, how he played his guitar, the only thing that chuuya was doing was crying and thinking about albatross, he couldn't listen to yosano yelling at him, suddenly someone entered the studio "Hey chuu, I bought some cinnamon rolls-" it was dazai. He stopped talking and ran to chuuya as he saw him like that "Chuuya? Chuuya!" He snapped out of it and looked at dazai with blurry vision and tears running down his eyes "what happened?" Chuuya couldn't reply, he was shaking "okay let's sit down" they sat down as yosano brought some water "chuuya whats wrong-" yosano grabbed dazai and took him out of the studio with her "he needs some space right now" yosano light her cigarette "want one?" "Whats wrong with chuuya?" Dazai ignored her question, he only cared about chuuya at that moment. Before she could say anything chuuya opened the door and walked out with his guitar and his eyes fixed on the ground "see you tomorrow, don't follow me." He started walking away but dazai went after him and grabbed his hand "What happened-!" Before he could end his sentence chuuya pushed him away "Leave me alone!" With tears in his eyes he ran at the opposite direction, away from dazai leaving him standing there, yosano walked to him "its fine dazai, he just needs time, its not your fault".

"Shit shit shit" chuuya ran to his room and shut the door "Hey don't break the door!" Verlaine said while cooking dinner, chuuya left his guitar on his bed and started mubling to himself "he died because of me and now I'm pushing dazai away too, shit I'm so horrible" he said to himself as he layed on the ground and started thinking about his life choices "its all my fault isn't it, albatross died because of me, now dazai is probably hurt because of me, my dad left because of me, I'm the problem after all everytime".

Author note:

This is a little bit inspired by the anime given, its really good you should check it out. Well hope you liked this chapter I know its kind of short but chapter 3 that will come out today too will be better! Thank you for reading this and if you have any suggestions or ideas tell me:)