𝐒𝐡𝐞'𝐬 𝐀 𝐃𝐚𝐧𝐜𝐞𝐫 - 𝐆!𝐏- 𝐁.𝐄

𝐗𝐗𝐈 - 𝐀𝐝𝐦𝐢𝐭 𝐢𝐭⋆

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21: 𝐒𝐩𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐝 𝐓𝐡𝐢𝐧, 𝐌𝐚𝐫𝐢𝐚𝐡 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐒𝐜𝐢𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐢𝐬𝐭 -𝟑:𝟐𝟑

Billies POV

Tour. When I left I was experiencing one of the worst heartbreaks I had experienced in years. I never had a good track record with relationships but with Maia I had hope for myself. Today marks 4 months since I left. I had my head phones on full blast as I stared out the car window. I was on my way to some interview. Ever since Maia and I split, I haven't been able to divide my mind from work and home life.

When im with my family, all I can think about is her. When im in the studio, interviews, photoshoots. All that I can ever think about is her. Ive written songs and songs the entire time while on tour and all they can be about is her. I can't get her off of my mind.

I knew getting into a relationship at the time I did was wrong. I knew from the moment I saw her, the moment I kissed her, held her. I knew I was leaving for this tour. And I still got into a relationship. I love her. I love her more than I fucking love myself. I still love her after she never told me she loves me too.

"Billie...BILLIE" the sound of Finneas calling me snapped me out of the trance I was in. I blinked a few times before turning to him "Hmm? yeah what's up?" I replied. Finneas let out an exaggerating sigh "Dude im sick of this shit". I screwed my face "What the fuck are you talking about?" I replied. "This! i'm sick of you sulking all the fucking time and always being so fucking sad. It's been 4 MONTHS BILLIE. It's been 4 whole months. You need to at least try to get better or get over her or something!" Finneas exclaimed while throwing his head back

"Dude what the fuck are you saying. You know how I feel about Maia. I fucking love her. I can't just get over her like that" I defended myself "I fucked up one of the best things i've ever had. All because I wanted to avoid the truth. I knew I was leaving and I still fucking fell for her and I LET her fall for me! I feel like a piece of shit Finneas! IM the reason i'm in this position and i'm the reason why I feel this way" I was now crossing my arms, slumped against the couch.

"Billie. I know how you feel. But you can not sit here and feel sorry for yourself for a fucking century because you fell in love. Do you think Maia is doing that shit? No she's not. Matter of fact you KNOW Maia isn't doing that shit because I know you watch her videos every Wednesday when she drops them Billie. Get. Over. Yourself. You are never going to feel better of you don't get up and do something else!" Finneas was not yelling at me. I feel like Ive been stabbed in the chest a million times. I know hes right but I don't want to admit it.

"Yeah Finneas. I was in love. I AM in love-" He cut me off suddenly "Billie you aren't the only person who has ever been in love! Most people when they get dumped by someone the love, they rather move the fuck on"

His words hit me like a truck.

Suddenly I was crying. Not from Finneas trying to scold the fuck out of me but because he was right. I can't avoid it. I can't fight it. There is no point in holding onto something that I can't get back. I clutch the necklace around my neck and let out a sigh of relief.

The whole way home I was covered in this overwhelming relief. I feel like I had just found the answer to what i've been looking for my entire life. Finneas was right. I need to get over her. There is no point in holding onto this. I know I love her. I know I loved her. She was all I wanted. I can't give my love to someone who doesn't love me.

I unlocked my front door and Shark comes running towards me wagging his tail "Hi sharky" I scratch and pat his back. I plop down on my couch and shark comes and sits next to me.

Suddenly my phone begins ringing. I let out a groan before turning over my phone to answer it. The contact name reads "Maia". My heart pangs and drops to my ass. I nervously slide my finder across to answer.

"Maia?"

It was really her.

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a/n: hey... so how we feeling about this chapter??? please dont be mad at me for this. It had to be done so I did it. BOOM