Why did he give up on me.
The feeling in my gut is demolishing me from the inside out. I feel alone, abandoned by the person I loved most.
I waited for him. After everything he had been through I was the only one left to support him. Then he left me. No apology or even a single thank you. He wrecked me, he used me.
I helped the man that I loved get back on his feet, and what did I get in return, a stab to the back once again. I don't know when I will ever learn that I can't trust people anymore. I want to be the kind person I know I am but deep down I know that if I don't protect myself by being heartless, it will just ruin me more than I already am.
He distanced himself from me. He told me that he would always be there no matter what. But then look where we ended up.
I don't know how else to explain this in words. It's just the feeling you get when you know you will never get to have that one person back in your life. The person who made you're days better, the person who made you laugh even when you were sad, the person I counted on to be there for me after I was there for him. But no. I was returned with nothing. Not even a goodbye.
I feel lost. When I stare off there's no more thoughts, it's just staring. I don't think, I don't really even care. I just feel so empty inside that I don't mind what happens. I'm not sure if this feeling will ever go away.
