Summer love - Elmax

Chapter 5 - Realisation

TW: mention of s£lf h@rm.

~Max's POV~

When we woke up the boys decided to finish their round of D&D so me and El went to star court. I think she has started to like me. I mean she doesn't look so pissed when I stand near her. We were almost at starcourt when she stopped.
"Are you ok?" I asked.
"Like you care," she said while starting to walk again. I grabbed her shoulder and she looked at me.
"I do." I said.
"I just... ugh Mikes being dick," she said. I looked at her.
"Well if you didn't know, that's kind of how mike is usually," I excepted her to start shouting at me saying mike was amazing and sweet but she didn't. She just laughed. I stared at her. What had happened between her and Mike?
"What did he do?' I asked.
'He kept laughing at me and then saying I was being bitchy when I didn't want to play D&D and I don't think I want to...' she stopped herself before she could finish. I was conufused.
"You can finish," I told her.
"I don't think I... like him.. the same anymore,' she flinched. I stood there. Shocked.

~Els POV~

Oh. My. GOD.

Did I really say that about mike. My Mike. She stood there like an idiot but for some reason I couldn't stop staring. Of course she's going to tell him. I'm such an idiot. I heard someone shout my name and it snapped me back to reality. I turned around and Mike was standing outside shouting my name. I turned to Max.
'I have to go. Umm see you at school,' I turned back and started to run. I heard her try to say something but I didn't turn back. I kept running.

"You ok,' Mike asked.
"Im fine Mike. Just take me home." He was holding my bag and I grabbed it out of his hands and sat behind him.
"Are you sure your ok," he asked again.
"Do I look ok to you Mike?" I didn't know why I was being a bitch he was just trying to be nice but I just wanted to go home.

~Max's POV~

I had walked home. I had to knock on the door cause my keys were at Mike. I couldn't even care.
"Ugh your back,"my step dad had opened the door and stared at me.
"Good to see you too," I smiled sarcastically and pushed my way in.
"Who's shirt is that? I know it's not yours so don't try lying," I looked at the floor. I couldn't tell him it was Lucas. He would kill me, billy had told him about Lucas and now I couldn't even say his name in a conversation or I would regret it. I had spilled ice cream on my shirt when I was at the sleepover and so Lucas had given me his.
"I got it while shopping today," I answered. I was trying to get to my room as quick as possible without looking at him.
"It's that filthy Sinclaire's shirt isn't it," I stayed silent but stopped walking. "ISN'S IT," he shouted. He grabbed it and tried ripping it but I wouldn't let him.
"Stop! It isn't I promise," he was holding my shoulders so tight and the grip just kept getting tighter.
"I thought billy had told you to stay away from that kid,"
"WELL BILLY CANT SAY MUCH ANYMORE. HES DEAD," I knew I would regret saying that but he stayed silent and didn't move. Suddenly, he had gotten so close to my face I could feel him breathing long warm breaths on my neck.
"Don't ever speak about your brother like that again. Do you understand me." He said so calmly.
"He's not my brother," I whispered. He turned around and walked away.
"Stay away from that kid. Or you'll regret it." He walked away and I ran into my room and shut the door so hard. I never wanted to come out ever again. Tears poured down my face as I reached for the blade on my desk. I pressed it on my skin until it burst. Silent tears ran down my cheeks and onto the cut. I was about to make the next slash when I stopped. I thought of El. I didn't know why but it comforted me. Her beautiful smile and silky hair. She was so pretty but of course she would never like me. Im... Me. But God. Do I like her? I think I do. I put the blade down and jumped into my bed. Covering my face with my pillow. Crying warm tears that my pillow swallowed and I wanted my bed to swallow me too. What if my step dad found out I liked a girl? What would the party do? I just want to melt and never exist again. I stayed there for what felt like years. Crying.

~Els POV~

I got home and said hi to my dad.
" hey kiddo was it fun," hopper asked. I nodded and went into my room shutting the door. Soon after I heard a knock and hopper came in and sat done in my bed.
"Is everything ok kiddo you don't look to good," he asked. I sighed and turned to face him. 
"There's this... person and I started hating them and now I don't know how to feel. I feel bad because I don't like Mike anymore but I don't know if I like h.. them like that too. I don't know what to do," I lied down and hopper pulled me into a hug.
"It's ok if you don't like Mike anymore. Feelings Change and people might too. Spend more time with this person and see how you feel but don't say anything to Mike if your not sure yet." I looked at him and nodded. I went out of my room and went to the phone. Putting in Max's number and putting the phone up to my ear.
" hello," I said into the phone.
"Who's there?," they answered.
"I'm Max's friend. Do you think I could talk to her?"
"Fine." I heard screaming in the other end and then I heard Max's voice.
"Who is this?" She asked. I could the pain in her voice.
" Max it's me El,"
"El?" Her voice sounded softer. Calmer.
"Yeh. I was wondering if you maybe wanted to I don't know. Hang out or something?" God I sounded so desperate.
"... You want to hang out with... me,"
"Only if you want to." There was silence. I knew she didn't want to. Why did I ask. I went to put the phone back when I heard.
" El I'm so sorry,"
" why?" I asked worried.
" I got in a," her voice got quieter "fight with my step dad. I don't want to leave my room or house. I'm so sorry I just don't feel safe anymore."
"God I'm so sorry I asked I hope everything will get better but umm I'll see you tomorrow at school then?"
" yeh at school,"
"Ok then bye see you tomorrow,"
"Bye," she hung up and I went into my room and closed the door. I sat in my bed and I couldn't do anything else then to think about her. I miss her. I think I like her. Like a lot.

Author note:
Sorry this is so long and took ages I've just been busy and feeling rlly bad about not reading/ writing so I haven't rlly been motivated. Also I love mileven and byler and Lumax and elmax so this is weird to write when I like all of them. Anyway sorry again and I hope you like this one. Bye.