Substance

Luna Gray

Kacey: My name is Kacey Saw, and I'm here with a very special someone. No other than Luna Gray. She is here to answer some questions pertaining to her abuse with drugs, and she not only want to share her story but also to motivate others to take a different path.  Lets jump straight in, When did you start using drugs and why?

Luna: I was 20 years old I had just had my daughter. My daughter wasn't even 1 as yet I used it to just cope with what had been going on in my life after her father left me and that kind of stuff. My mother had took my baby because I was really doing hard drugs like pills, cocaine, heroine. I took those drugs because it made me feel good and shitty at the same time. I was always really violent and I couldn't take care of myself like a normal person. Her father left me because I wouldn't abort my baby and that drove me into a deep depression. Thats when a friend introduced me to cocaine.

Kacey: What type effect it took on your life?

Luna: Wow... um well. I overdosed. I was laid in the middle of the road unresponsive, all I remembered was hearing "her eyes are opening", and I panicked and started going crazy. I reached to the er and I ripped the IV drips out my hand put my clothes on and left. I did more drugs, I slept on old mattresses in dark alleys. I was basically a bum, I had a home but I choose that life. I lost so much weight and was a skeleton and people couldn't recognize me. It just really took a turn for the worst.

Kacey: Im sorry, Describe your life before the drug abuse.

Luna: I had a degree in law, I was an intern at a local law firm. I had a great house, nice car, lovely lifestyle. I took good care of myself, went on dates with men, had a great time you know. I enjoyed myself, I loved myself. My life was great and I messed that right up.

Kacey: Did you stop and think about the people you loved?

Luna: I didn't, I never even stop to think about my daughter. That was selfish of me. I thought only about myself.  My sister saw on the side of the road by mistake and she sat next to me with her car in the middle of the road, she looked at me and said "come home please". I told her "get away from me". She started crying, she got in her car and drove to the gas station and got me some hot food. I hadn't eating in days. Although she did that for me I still never said thank you and still never acknowledged her.

Kacey: This is the last question so make it nice , How your life now after the abuse?

Luna: My daughter is now 20 years old and she looks so beautiful. I got my old job back, my lifestyle, my home, and my family. I look back and I say who was I? I gained alot of weight and I feel so refreshed now. I got engaged and I'm also expecting another baby at age 40. I just love to see myself like this I love feeling this way. 20 years ago when I was begging for money for drugs and was doing drugs I always said to myself "I'll never get to this point in my life again" and here I am again living a great life with my baby girl next to me.

Kacey: I am very proud of  you, I love this new look on you and I just want to ask this last question what would you like to say to people out there with substance abuse or who didn't experience it?

Luna: Its not a good look or feel, you forget who you are and your purpose and I don't want nobody to waste their purpose following company. Substance abuse was not easy and it wasn't fun at all. Stay away from drugs find something you love and stick with it. Do something with your life, love yourself, acknowledge people that love you. Never take life for granted never. It wasn't a easy road but I managed through God. Have a great day and always choose the right choices