walks // dreamnotfound

~4~

I get to wilburs house after walking with clay about halfway the way to his house.

I knock on the door, Wilbur owns his own house so he's lucky, I don't have the money to get my own house and my parents don't want me to move out.

Not because they love me though, they hate me.

The door opens, "heyy" Wilbur smiles and pulls me into a hug, i hug back.

"What made you late?" He asks, "karls boyfriends friend walked with me" I say, "OoOooOo do you like hiiimmm" Wilbur teases, "no, he's just a friend, and I only met him today" I laugh, "right" Wilbur rolls his eyes and smiles at me.

We walk into the living room where tommy and tubbo are playing on wilburs Playstation.

"Hey Gogy" Tommy says not looking at me, "don't call me that" I say sitting down on the couch, "don't be a bitch" he says, "hey George" tubbo says after he lost to tommy.

"Ha, YOU SUCK" Tommy yells, "hey tubbo" I smile covering my ears as Tommy screams about how he won to tubbo.

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I leave wilburs house the next day late, near 6pm.

It's almost dark, I begin to walk home to my probably angry parents.

When I get there I open the door to immediately hear a alcohol bottle smash, "where have you been?" I mum says, "friends" I answer, "WHY DID-"

"I'm 24 for fucks sake, leave me alone" I yell then walk upstairs before I get a fist to my face.

I quickly walk to my room and close he door locking it.

I hear banging on my door, "YOU FUCKING FAGGOT GET OUT HERE" my dad shouts.

I quickly walk to my window and jump out I run to the river back and walk along it.

There voices still screaming at me in my head.

It's 10:44pm.

A tear leaves my eye.

George your 25, you need to leave that place.

I have moved out once, but it was with one of my boyfriends, he cheated on me.

I walk alone the bank holding in the anger inside me.

I stop running my fingers through my hair, "George?" I hear clays voice, I quickly open my eyes and look down at him sitting by a rock with his friend.

They both look at me, i feel so overwhelmed as his friend stares, I take a deep breath, "are you ok?" Clay says standing, "I'm fine" I say as a couple tears escape my eyes and I wipe them away quickly.

"I'll see you later" I hear clays friend say to clay then walk away from us.

Clay walks over to me, "George what's wrong?" He whispers, "nothing" I sob, he grabs my hand, I pull away and turn from him.

"Don't pretend like you care" I whisper, "I'm not" he whispers, i feel his hand grab mine again softly.

I quickly turn and wrao my arms around his neck, he slips his arms around my waist and hugs me tightly.

I cry into his shoulder, he runs his hand up and down my waist for comfort.

After a while he pulls away, he wipes my tears but its no use because more come out.

"What's wrong?" He whispers, "nothing, I'm just being pathetic" I sob and reach to hug him again.

He holds my waist and pushes me away, "george" he whispers calmly.

"I can't help you if you don't tell me whats wrong, I'm not forcing you to tell me but you can't just ignore it" he whispers cupping my cheeks.

I shake my head, he sighs and hugs me, I hug back quickly, "do you wanna go to the river?" He whispers, I nod still crying and pull away.

He leads over the rocks finding a large flat rock to sit on.

He pulls me on his lap sideways.

I wrap my arms around his neck again and bury my ace in his neck.

He puts his arms around my waist  "your not being pathetic George, everyone has there moments" he whispers rubbing my back softly.

I slowly begin to calm down, he lite his hand to brush my hair out of my eyes.

He places his hand on the side on my lower thigh.

I remove both my arms from clays neck and grab his hand, playing with his fingers softly.

He watches as I do so.

"Wanna go for a swim?" He whispers, I shake my head, "ok, I'll throw you in" he says, I groan and wrao my arms around his neck tightly, "no" I whisper, he stands, lifting me, "no" I say and he laughs and sits back down.

Clay has a green bracelet tied to his wrist, I play with it, he let's me.

"Your hands are cold" he whispers, "I wonder why?" I smile, he wraps his arms around me tightly, hugging me, I slip my hands in clays hoodie pocket.

I lean from clay and look off into the distance, admiring the moonlight against the water of the river.

Clays pov

He admires the river, it makes me smile at his beautiful face under the moonlight.

"Why are you staring at me?" He says turning his head and looking at me.

"It's hard not to George" I whisper, he wraps his arms around my neck and burys his face in my neck, "now you cant" he smiles into my neck, I laugh a little.

He's so cute

I rub his back softly.

"I'm gonna fall asleep" he whispers lifting his head off me.

"Do you wanna go to my house?" I ask, he nods and gets off me.

I help him up the slippery rocks from the dampness of the night.

We walk to a car park and I unlock my car, he gets in the front seat and I take the driver's seat.