KIBA ; STRAY KIDS

9 ; KIBA

It was happening again. The random states of depression. I had woken up in my new room and it was completely silent. I wasn't used to the silence, there was always some disturbance from my old apartment.

I stood up from my bed. It was 7am, I knew it was weird. I never wake up this early. I think the best thing to do is just to shower first to see if I feel better.

I stripped from my pyjamas and walked into the bathroom to start a shower. I played some Twice and BTS from a K-pop playlist and started the water. I washed my hair first with my shampoo which smelt like rain.

I loved rain. Its the best type of weather because no one goes out when it's raining so everything, including the streets of Seoul, are a lot quieter. I can risk going out without being disturbed by anything.

I heard my door click so I quickly peaked out from behind the shower curtain. A sleepy, messy looking Seungmin was in my bathroom with cute sweater paws. I smiled at the cute sight.

"Can I help you?" I asked and he looked at me from behind the shower curtain.

"We're making breakfast. Don't be long." He said and I nodded as Seungmin walked out with red ears.

I hurried up, finished washing my body and conditioning my hair. Once I was out, I tied the towel around my waist and continued with brushing my teeth and drying my hair with a hair dryer. I also did skincare since it was a pretty strict thing to follow within the companies.

I walked put the bathroom, and opened the closet to pick out some clothes. I had every intention of putting on clean clothes till Seungmin barged back into my room.

"Foods ready come on." He said, and grabbed onto my wrist, dragging me out of the room. I had to hold onto the towel that's how fast he was pulling me!

We arrived into the busy kitchen. Noise from every corner and every mouth. I checked the time and it had just turned 8, I was in the shower a long time.

"Oooo! Kiba's naked!" Hyunjin shouted out and a chorus of 'Oooo!'s sounded out. I could feel my ears burning as everyone's eyes were on me.

"You have an incredible body!" Felix said and I smiled at him. When I first came back to Korea, I learned it was quite the thing to compliment people's bodies however it never became easier to accept those kinds of compliments.

"So nice. You workout?" Changbin asked and I looked at him as his eyes were still half closed.

"Not really. I just dance and stuff. Sometimes I might run at night." I said and he nodded impressed.

I was telling the truth. Most of the truth. Sometimes I lifted stuff as if they were weights. Sometimes I completely forgot to eat because I was busy. It was a bad habit I had got into ever since my depression flared up again last year.

"Is that a tattoo?" Jeongin asked as he stretched across the table and touched the black ink under my belly button.

I looked down completely forgetting I had got my first tattoo in England when I went there for a old friend's birthday when I turned 18. It was a tiny snake I had called Marvin when I first got him.

"Yeah, he's Marvin." I said with a smile as I looked down at him. The boys repeated the name in English with their Korean accents.

"Stand up." Seungmin said as he came to stand in front of me. I did as told.

Seungmin touched it gently before bending down to look at it better. I felt my ears get more red as his breath was hitting my skin. I smiled as his eyes were wide in wonder and his smile was wide.

"Do none of you have tattoos?" I asked and all of them shook their heads.

"No tattoos allowed unfortunately." Han said, "strict policies."

"I guess I'll have to hide this one for a while then." I said and I grabbed Seungmin's hand as he was still touching it lightly and I didn't want to get more flustered.

"WHY YOUR EARS RED?" Han shouted out and I looked him quickly, and moved to cover my ears. The boys laughed and continued to tease me as Lee Know handed out the breakfast.

I looked at Seungmin and he was smiling brightly at me, his ears a ting of red too. I shook my head with a light smile. It's almost like he planned it.

I ate the food in peace, the boys were too into the food to speak. I watched each of them as they ate their food respectfully and thanked Lee Know for their breakfast. I did the same.

After breakfast, I was actually allowed to get ready in peace. I put on some joggers and a long shirt as today was choreo day and DanceRACHA would teach us and come up with the choreography to God's Menu.

I guess after the shower, I was feeling better. I wasn't feeling so bad anymore. I would have to be careful with my stress levels, I don't want any depressive episodes to put down the boys and their hard work.