Whats going on with you (Conrad Fisherx y/n)

the purged girl singer

(suicide, self-harm, drinking)

your pov 

you woke up to Conrad on his phone "what are you doing" you turned around and looked at his phone "apartments" he looked at me and smiled "yeah and i actually found some decent places for us" i smiled 

"oh so your looking for our place to live without me" he smiled "Mabey but before you say anything look at these two places" he handed me his phone i smiled as i saw an apartment it had two rooms a nice kitchen and living room 

"and guess what, we can check it out today" i smiled "you know what sure gives us something to do after we dance today" he sighed "oh god, noo why are you making me go" i smirked "because now i have to go take a shower and get ready for the dance" he sighed 

"wait no, lets go for a swim please we have a little while till we leave for tonight" i sighed "no i wanna work on my songs" he looked at me "wait for songs" you sighed "damn it, yes songs im a writer and a singer" he looked at me "hold up why haven't i ever heard you sing"

you sighed and sat back down "because i don't want people to know about it, it's kind of a secret" he smiled "show me some songs please" i shook my head "no please no" he smiled "okay ill show the tiny songs ive made on TikTok" he looked at me 

"you have a TikTok account for it" i shook my head "than why haven't i ever seen you" i smirked "you've seen me babe your actually following me" he grabbed his phone "wait no your not her" i shook my head and pulled out my phone 

and showed him i own the account "i never would have thought your, the purged girl singer" i smiled "well that's me" he smiled "hold up when having you even had time to post" you smirk i sneak out of the house all the time, or i do it when your out with Nicole"

"Now please don't tell anyone" he smiled and clicked on the video "wait so you have the mask, and the speaker and everything here with you" you shake your head "here come here" i grabbed his hand and pulled him into my room 

i reached under my bed and pulled out my mask, hoodies, and the skirts i wear" he smiled "y/n you have over a 500million followers and you still keep this a secret" i shook my head "yeah i still keep it a secret" he grabbed the mask and looked at it 

"y/n you could make a full-on career out of this" i smiled "Connie I'm already working on it" he looked in the bag "wait what about your mic" you smile "well as you know I'm moving out here right" he shook his head "well I've found a studio i bought a room in it, and I've started to work on songs"

"can i come with you this afternoon well you practice" i sighed "okay fine you can, but first i have to take a shower" he smiled "can i join" i rolled my eyes "No your just gonna distract me" he smiled "no i wont were just gonna save water" i sighed and grabbed an extra towel 

i hid the bag back under my bed and walked into the bathroom and started a shower Conrad was shortly behind me 

after you shower

"god damn it Conrad i didn't want you in there with me because i didn't want this," i said looking into the mirror i had hickeys all the way down my neck leading into my shirt" he just sat there smiling like a dork 

i quickly packed up the dress and hat that i need for dance Connie packed up his own suit "okay come on let's go" i grabbed the bag that was under my bed and we walked downstairs i quickly walked over to the cabinet and took my meds 

"hey where are you too off to" i sighed "oh I'm off to my studio," i said to Susanah "wait she knows" i smiled "yup she knows" she smirked, "you told him" i shook my head "you know he always that she was so hot" i looked at Connie