Why do I tell myself this?
Why do I do this to myself?
Knew you were trouble from the very first night, a player but the kind i'd definitely have eyes for, one I could really like.
Told myself it's a win win situation for me, I have some fun, we both do but I wasn't interested in your fun but my own. I wanted to be selfish like guys usually are, have my fun just because I want to and not have to worry about what anyone says or thinks.
Oh I had my fun... I knew you'd disappear, stop responding to texts and ignore me like you did all the other girls as soon as you got bored of them, I didn't expect any less than just that and you delivered. I knew it wouldn't exactly hurt but it would make me just a little colder and it did, I'm a little colder than before you, I wanted to be a little colder. I ask myself though, "am I not the world's greatest fool?" In the end doing what a man does bears different fruit for a woman, there will be pain, regret because "it isn't our place" to have that kinda freedom.
I don't even know what I'm saying, but I care yet I don't give two hens about it.
It would've been nicer if he responded to my texts though.
Oh yeah and darn it! he still has my socks.
