The Lovers Connection: Volume 1

Volume 2: sneak peak

Jessies POV:

As I sat on that bench, holding that gun in my hands, I remembered everything everyone has told me up to this point. From Clare to Rileys Father. It disgusted me trying to think of David. But what he told me, along with everyone else, shattered my poor mind. I just looked back down at the gun after taking a glance at the midnight sky above me. I replayed everything they said to me, like it was a tape recorder. “There is no happy ending, Jessie. Some things will never change in this world and you need to understand that. Soon, you’ll lose hope, your friends, and your lovers if you don’t protect them. Life isn’t fair, nor is it a happy place. You will fall and break down until your own choices aren’t even your choices anymore. Something will happen to you and your loves and you’ll lose everything. People are going to want people like you dead. And eventually you’ll have to face those consequences. And you won’t be able to save anyone. Like I couldn’t…” “… Your young, Jessie. I don’t want life to pressure you more now that you have them to take care of. Fritz can barely even hold his emotions together anymore, Riley’s heart is a pinch away from breaking because of his father, and you and Jules are the only ones who can save them both. And I know you’re all scared and broken, but the world will not give you any second chances. No matter how hard you try or if you win or fail. You both need to look after them and love eachother. No matter the consequences…” “...We’re all worried sick, I know, but there is no happy ending, Jessie. Lifes not fair. Nothing’s fucking fair. What happened to you, Riley, Fritz and Jules, it’s not fair. I dont want any of you hurting as much as im hurting too. Chloe cries to me about this shit all the fucking time now and I can’t take it anymore. Well, all break soon and there will be no one left to help us. No one...”“… Unless you try. Jessie, I know it hurts a lot, and it hurts me too, but they need us. I need you, ok? You’re all the hope I have left. They’ll break if they see you break. It sucks, I know, but that’s how life is. Everything happens for a reason and it’s never fair. But staying strong will help you through it. We can make it through this, ok? You, me, Riley and Fritz…” “… You’ve lost yourself to some mistake of a child. You threw your whole life away to what? Be happy? You’ll face those consequences one day and have to live with the pain until you’re dead.” That final sentence echoed in my head. My head pained, and I felt my eyes glue to that gun. I had so many thoughts while staring at it. Then I remebered one last thing that made me stand up. “Keep your chin high, Jessie.” I reminded myself. “This nightmare will end soon.” Then I just replayed Jules’s, Fritz’s and Riley’s sweet voices in my head one last time to keep me going. “We love you, Jessie. No matter what happens now or what happens next…” “… You’re my sweet baby and I love you till the end of time…” “… You just have to stay strong for us. Ok? We believe in you…”