Chasing Rainbows (COMPLETED)(Gay/Lesbian/Transgender)

Chapter eight Sarah's POV 7 years ago

WARNING: some explicit content. You have been warned.

I felt so used, and filthy. Not dirty, oh no, far worse than dirty. I ran to the shower after He left and scrubbed until my body turned red and splotchy. It's better than feeling His touch on me.

I have to save Anna before she grows up and is subjected to Him. He and His terrible games. His terrible words, and even worse actions. I have to save my baby sister.

Currently she is at her babysitter, Juanita's house. She's an old family friend and I know that I can trust her. Right now Anna is in good and caring hands. If our mom trusted her, I trust her. Of course I'm sure she trusted our father at first too...

I turned the water off and grabbed my towel, wrapping it tightly around my body. I ran my comb through my wavy locks to get rid of the tangles and let my now wet hair cascade over my shoulders.

My birthday is tomorrow and Anna told me she was going to make me cupcakes, which I'm really not sure I should even eat. Let's just say she likes to experiment with her foods...

Pickles, mayo and strawberries sound good to anyone? Didn't think so...

He yells at me for the scars on my arms and hurts me but I keep doing it anyway. Maybe I do it because it makes him angry. He hasn't touched Anna yet, and that's all that matters. I don't care what he does to me but he will not hurt my baby sis. I won't allow it, under ANY circumstances.

My skin feels raw and is as red as a tomato, but at least I'm somewhat free from His touch. So my red, splotchy arms bring great comfort to me in an odd way.

I tie my hair back with a violet ribbon and get dressed. Juanita is knocking at the door with Anna and I open it. She has cute little braided pig tails in and it's the most adorable thing in the world.

"Hey there Anna!" I say as she jumps into my arms. "Did you guys have fun?" I asked her and she shook her head yes and told me all about it. She's so cute.

Juanita left. I gave Anna a bath, helped her put her pajamas on, and we brushed our teeth. (Mine for like the fourth time today).

I tucked Anna in her cute little bed and read her her favorite bedtime story, "Snow white and the seven dwarves".

After she nodded off to sleep, I turned out her light and quietly exited the room. She makes my day bearable- she makes life bearable.

I was in my room nearly asleep, when He walked in and grabbed me. He reeked of alcohol and his eyes were bloodshot.

His drunken hands roamed all over my body and I knew what was coming next. I lied there weeping silently, just waiting for it to be over like every other night.

I felt a terrible pain as I usually do, because he's never gentle. Sometimes he even passes out right on top of me in the middle of it... It's sickening really. It's disgusting. Everything this man does is disgusting, I just can't make it on my own. Being thirteen really isn't a good age to leave. I have no one here. I wouldn't know how to survive. I hate saying it, but I need Him. As much as I wish I didn't, I do.

One day I'll find the courage to leave. One day.