Chasing Rainbows (COMPLETED)(Gay/Lesbian/Transgender)

Chapter eleven Cady's POV

I wake up to the smell of honey and cinnamon, a smell that I have become very well acquainted with over the past few days. I drink in the scent and hold Anna closer, her shampoo being one of the most pleasant smells in the history of smells.

It's like 3:00 in the morning or some crazy, early time so I just hold my girlfriend- yes my girlfriend- close to me.

From afar, I can hear Tripp freaking out in his sleep and I can't help but worry. He says he has night terrors and that it only gets worse if he's woken up and then goes back to sleep. I'm worried about him though. He's become a big part of my life these past weeks.

Two weeks that these kids have been here this year and already people have left. I don't know why my mom thinks what she's doing here is right.

My mother never used to be this way, never. She used to be kind, loving even. She braided my hair and she helped me fly a kite.

I'm afraid now that she would chop off my hair and just let my kite fly away as I watched...she's just not the same.

Change is good- for some people. I don't mind change at all. Of course, I don't like it when my mother becomes a completely different person and I'm sucked into this world where I'm automatically outcasted, but she doesn't know so I'm not really outcasted in her eyes.

I can't just talk to my mom about what I'm going through because most of its about her! And our relationship is bad enough; I don't want to alter it any more than it already has been.

Now what changed? Well I'm fairly sure it had something to do with the fact that my dad is now married to Stephen...

Yes my dad is gay. And now my mom holds this enormous grudge against anyone else like him. Which sucks- so much- but what can I do?

I've tried talking to her, and I've tried convincing her otherwise. But she just shuts me out. She pushes, and pushes until I'm close to the edge.

One of these days, I'm going to fall off and then what? I'm just going to go off the deep end and lose her. I don't want that. She can't want that either.

I miss Stephen and pops. I just haven't seen them in a while because they live out of state and well... I can't just walk there everyday. So I'm stuck here. With her. At least until I turn eighteen, then I'm out of here. And for good too.

But until then, I'll just keep cuddling up to my favorite gal, keep trying to help Tripp, along with other kids here, and keep on smelling the cinnamon and honey.

I close my eyes and feel sleep slowly take over me.