Chasing Rainbows (COMPLETED)(Gay/Lesbian/Transgender)

Chapter ten Tripp's POV Two years ago

"So, Thomas, how are you feeling after your last visit."

I stare blankly at the pudgy man and try to decide my next words very carefully.

"Fine." Fine. Right. What I really want to tell them is no, I'm terrible. Everyday I'm pushed and poked and prodded by my family for being different...and a few days ago my brother took it too far.

I feel used and I'm not sure how I can even look at those people that I used to call family.

I used to play ball in the yard with my step-father, who's now wasting away drunk in some bar every evening.

I used to play tag with my step-brother who now thinks it's funny to beat on me and...and...

My thoughts were interrupted as Doctor Briggs began talking. Something about how he wants me to try to speak up more and voice my opinion. Well I used to do that doc but now I can't even mutter two words without feeling self conscious.

After the session ended, I trudged out into the parking lot and got in the car with my brother. The rain is lightly tapping the windows and for a little while I feel peaceful. I feel like I can breathe again, even with David sitting so close to me.

For once he doesn't reek of alcohol or marijuana and he looks pleasant. He looks like the older brother I remember him being before everything went down.

"Tripp...I-" he begins and I just look down at my palms, not knowing what's going to happen next.

"I'm so sorry. I really am." Right then and there I begin to cry, unable to help the tears that are flowing forth from my eyes. I mean is this some joke? Is he being serious? I can't tell.

"David." I say and try to gather my words. He looks at me like a pleading little puppy. "It's okay. You were just confused and I know you feel it was a big mistake..." I tell him and dare to look him in the eyes. Blue. Ocean blue. No longer black.

"I don't think all of it was a mistake." He says and I feel as though my world was crumbling down around me. "I mean obviously most of it was awful but the reason behind it was that I was scared. Terrified even."

"Of what?" I ask shakily.

"Of my feelings toward you." He says and starts the car. We stay silent the rest of the ride home, the only noise being the light patter of rain on the windows.

A/N
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