" you are my mistake " || miles Fairchild x y/n || contains smut

- Chapter 4 -

"Change begins at the end of your comfort zone." - Roy T. Bennett

- Flower of the day !

Camellia Flower

"Camellia flowers are often seen as a symbol of love, adoration, and longing. Don't hesitate to give them to people you love, no matter if your affection is romantic or platonic."

First person :

Tears fell down, as droplets fell on the windows of the taxi. It was a dark and gloomy ride home. I gripped onto my bags as I left the gates of the Fairchild estate. I regretted leaving. Kate was besides me. Talking on the phone with someone. Not sure who it was though. My chin was rested against my hand, my arm leaning on the edge of the window. The clouds filled the sky above, turning it into a deep mix of black, grey and some purple-ish colors. My palms became sweaty as I remembered what Miles had said.

"Why would he say that?" I thought to myself. I clenched my hands, making them get even more hot. I dug my nails into my skin, sometimes I do this to let go of anxiety. I know it's not the best way to cope with it but it works for me. I felt as my nails dug further into my skin, blood came dripping down from my palms, as well as tiny droplets of sweat.

It wasn't long before I heard soft snores coming from the person besides me. Kate. I turned my head towards her, watching her lean on the window, sleeping so peacefully, how? Did she not care at all? I wanted, so desperately, to know why she would leave. The Fairchild estate seemed gloomy on the outside, but fun, adventurous and exciting on the inside. Plus, the cute little girl and her kinda- good looking brother. Mrs. Grose could be a pain in the ass sometimes but, still! They looked- (key word, looked) happy! I turned my head to look back out the window. "Almost there" I thought to myself as we passed a couple of familiar trees.

The beautiful, sage green leaves blowing in the windy rain.

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We arrived at the apartment complex. Rain was still pouring down the windows and now down on me as I stepped out of the taxi. My luggage were still in my hands, I waved goodbye to Kate and walked inside. The warmth of the air brushed against my skin, making me feel comfortable and safe. I walked into the elevator, being the only one in there. It clanked as it stopped, I walked out and started walking to my room. The dark room smelt like smoke, rotten food and weed. "Probably neighbors.." I say, tossing the luggage on the floor, almost collapsing onto the couch. It was freezing, I wrap myself into the blanket, trying to comfort myself. My body laid there, lifelessly. Cold drops of tears came running down my eyes, making the couch wet.

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My eyes shoot open, I blinked twice, then staring into emptiness. Quiet sobs came out of my lips, making them part. I clenched my fists and brought them up to my sides as I sat up. I grabbed the pillow besides me and set it onto my lap. Punching it over and over again. Tears falling down onto the soft thing on my lap. My hands fell down, a feeling of tiredness came into me. I decided to get dressed and go out for the day.

I got up, grabbing clothes and quickly putting them on. I slipped on my shoes, hearing the ticking on the digital clock besides my couch. The green light flashes as it turns 10:45 A.M. I walk out of the door, heading to the bottom floor.

Once arriving, I thought to myself. "Where the hell am I going?"

Today, was very sunny. Honestly I would've never expected it. I wish I could meet someone, today would be perfect for a new friend, or more! I walked through the town, looking up at the shining stores. I came across a small, earthy pastry shop. It was adorable!

- this is what I imagined it as but you may imagine it as however you want. <3

I walked into the shop, a warm aroma surrounded me. A very tasty smell flying around in the air. I looked around, it was gorgeous. There were sweets everywhere. Glass containers filled pastries from cupcakes, to cookies, cakes, scones, any dessert you could think of! Plants would replace the empty places, the glossy white walls made the small bakery shimmer. It was the ideal place to go, when one is unhappy.

My body made its way to the front, I smiled as I read the menu that was above everything else. "hm, uhm- may I have the chocolate muffin, and a blueberry scone please?" I ask in one breath. I looked down to see a very attractive guy. He had brown curly hair, slight freckles and gorgeous brown eyes. Wow. "Of course" he replied back, his voice sounding high pitched but deep at the same time.

I sat down at a small table near the windows. It was very pretty. A feeling of dizziness and pain filled my body as I took a bite of this delicious chocolate muffin. I missed seeing Floras wonderful smile. With a smile like that, she could brighten up the entire world. And Miles.. well.. I guess I miss him as well. He was creepy but he did care about me. I finished up the chocolate muffin and started eating the scone.

I just got done with the scone, I got up to leave when someone called me.
"Hey! Person with (h/c). Wait!" I turned around quickly as someone grasped my arm. I look down at the hand and back up, only to see the guy from the front counter, again. "Uh. Yes? Do you need.. something?" I questioned. It was odd, I mean, who just yells your hair color and grab your arm, harshly? "I was wondering if you wanted to.. uh go out with me sometime?." He paused. He then spoke up again, speaking very hastily (fast or quickly) , I could tell he was speaking in one breath. "And if I could uh- getyournumberthatwouldbegreat." ("Get your number that would be great.") I tilt my head in confusion, but mostly getting the hint I give them a tiny nod.

A few words from the author .

Hello! Sorry this chapter was everywhere, I've been really busy with stuff in my offline life! I hope you can enjoy this chapter though!

See ya 🫶