" you are my mistake " || miles Fairchild x y/n || contains smut

- Chatper 3 -

" uncertainty is the most stressful feeling. "

- Flower of the day !

Astilbe Flower

"The astilbe flower is also known as false spirea, false goat's beard, or feather flower and they are said to have the meaning of "I will be waiting for you' or 'I'll still be waiting," symbolizing patience and dedication to a loved one."

First person :

Me and Flora walked through the front door, without miles. We had no clue where he went. I let go of Flora's hand, taking off my shoes. She took hers off as well before running to go find Kate. Flora had calmed down a little, from the breakdown she just had. I needed to find Miles and confront him about why he would do something like that in front of his OWN sister who was like nine! Absolutely horrible.

I walk around the house, quickly glancing everywhere before moving onto another part of the building. I walked into a dark room, it was dusty and you couldn't really see anything. I walked around, putting my arms in front so I wouldn't walk into anything. I stop, my hands touching something, something warm and cloth like. It felt like clothing. "Miles?" I ask, going closer to the "human" like thing. The lights flicker on and off, as I fall backwards. "AHHH!" I scream, my eyes widen and my palms got sweaty. Before I could fall all the way.. something caught me.

Comfortable arms wrapped around my waist, bringing me up quickly. I couldn't believe anything. I just stood there, my arms grabbed onto the other pair, intertwining the hands with mine. My breathing grew fast, just as fast as it slowed down. I took a few big breaths in and out, calming myself for whoever caught me. I turn around to see a tall boy. I couldn't tell from the murky room who it was, exactly.

A smirk spread across the boys face. I immediately realized who that devilish smirk belong too. The one and only. Miles. I turn around, his hands still on my waist, grabbing tighter. My arms took a hold of Miles neck as I brought him into a friendly hug. Nothing more then a friend hug! I swear! There was some.. different.. tension but it's fine. We're just friends. Right? Miles turned his head, his left hand left go of my torso as he opened the door. Walking backwards with me still in his arm. "thanks, for catching me." I say, looking down. "No problem, princess." His nickname for me made my stomach turn. Turn in a good way. My face heated up with a light pink blush he could definitely see. "hm? What's wrong? Are you sick?" His face looked worried, but I could tell he knew why my face looked like it did. "nothing!" I push myself off of him, his arms falling to his sides as he looks disappointed.

you know, two can play that game. I might as well join, I mean! Let's have fun! "Soo- I need to talk to you." I say, looking straight into his eyes. My eyes made contact with his eyes, my eyes narrowed, turning into siren eyes. His cheeks filled with a warm color of cherry blush. My hands wondered up his chest, wrapping around his neck again, instead of feeling safe like before, the air felt.. sexual. I bring his neck down, only inches away from his face. His warm breath hit my face as I smirked. I let go and walked away, blushing like crazy.

"Damn! I didn't talk to him." I thought to myself. Regret came crawling into my body. Making me feel nervous. Why did I join HIS game?! I knew it was a mistake but I still did it. I mentally face palmed myself on the forehead as I continued walking into the dining room.

•••

It was afternoon. Kate, Flora and Miles went to get another koi fish. I stayed at the house, helping Mrs. Grose clean. I swept the floor, brushing all the dirt and food crumbs into a pile, before scooping all of it up and dumping it into the trash. Mrs. Grose went to  collect Floras and Miles laundry, I put away the broom and scoop thingy into the laundry room. I grab cleaner and some paper towels. The kitchen was a mess from Mrs. Grose baking all day.

She was making muffins, banana bread and cake for Floras birthday. Which was coming up pretty soon. I needed to get her a gift. I wiped down the kitchen counters leaving them spotless. The way the kitchen sparkled reminded me of the first day I got here. It was only two days ago that I arrived but it had felt like forever. The door slammed shut, bringing me out of my thoughts, I turn around seeing a enraged (angry) Kate walk in and stomp her way to her bedroom.

My face read confused. I dropped the cleaner and paper towels on the table, following Kate to her room. As I made my way up the stairs, she slammed her door, making it sound like a hammer pounding into the wall. It rung my ears. My ears hurt like hell. My ears have always rung, but they started getting worse when my mother yelled at me. It wasn't always. She just started doing it, when my dad died. She had always loved my sister more. My sister, at the moment was with my mother. Her name was Amelia. She had beautiful s/h/c (sister hair color) hair. I walked closer to her room. Kate was.. crying? I listened in. As the door opened I tumbled forward into Kates arms.

"Sorry!" I half shout, pushing away. Embarrassment flooded my stomach and lungs. My face turned a bright red. "Oh- uh I'm leaving. I'm sorry. You can come with me if you wa-" I cut her off. "Why?!" My eyes widened as I heard the news. How could she leave? Didn't the poor girl need a teacher? Why would she ever leave Flora?! Let alone having the thought of leaving her! "Things are just to confusing and I need to go back home." Tears filled my eyes, only some spilling out. What do I say? Do I stay? Or do I go? (Should I stay or should I go~)

•••

I grabbed my jacket and slipped it on. I watched as Miles held Flora back, tears dropping from my eyes. I had to say goodbye. I wasn't like Kate! Who just left! I ran over to Flora and pulled her into a tight hug. "I'm so, so sorry, Flora. But I have to go. Kates my family and she's the only one I have left." I say, letting go of the hug, but my hands were still placed on her tiny, shaking shoulders. She was full-on crying. Her sniffles broke my heart. I felt so bad, that ANOTHER person (or people) were gonna leave her. Again. All alone. "Let's go, Y/n!" Kate shouted from outside. The taxi was here already, and she had everything in the car. "Bye. I'll keep in contact." I stand up, Flora dashed to her room, slamming shut her bedroom door. I look up at Miles who just looked down at me. He had anger in his eyes. But his face, I couldn't read at all. "I'm- I'm sorry, Miles." I apologize even if it wasn't my fault. He grabbed my cheeks with his hands, tugging my face forwards, harshly.

"Ow!" I thought, pain spreading on my face because of his rough grip. "Why." It didn't sound like a question. More like, he was telling me to stay without saying anything near that. "Kate— she's leaving and- and-" he cut me off, letting go of his grip and narrowing his eyes down at me. "Your gonna regret this." He said, almost whispering. His eyes turned dark, filling with bitter, annoyance. I tried to grab his wrist before he walked away but he just pushed me off, his face heating up with fury.

I wish I never did that. I was going to regret that day, forever.