Pen's Curse

VI

I'm done preparing all the things I need and all I'm gonna do is to find a taxi. I'm nervous, my chest is beating so fast. This is the night. God help me. Minutes passed and a taxi arrived at my place.

After a couple of minutes we arrived at the flower shop to buy flowers. I went to the roses section to buy a bouquet of white roses. I know that this flower is her favorite. I pay it in the cashier and wait for another taxi to drive me to the park.

While we're on the road I see the lights of the city, it's beautiful. The night it's so perfect for a fireworks display. As we got closer and closer to the destination my chest was pounding extremely that anytime I could explode. I need to relax. I inhale and exhale and I feel relaxed even a little. The driver breaks the silent atmosphere.

"You can do that sir. Fighting!" The driver said while he saw me nervous in the rear view mirror.

"Yes, I can do this. Thank you" I replied. Minutes passed and we arrived at the entrance of the park. I check the time it's 8:10 PM. I'm 20 minutes early. I decided to call Stella, after two rings she answered the phone

"Where are you?" I asked

"I'm on my way Dave" she said in an excited voice.

"Okay. I'm here at the entrance. What's the color of your dress?" I asked to know whenever she's near the entrance. I will recognize her.

"I'm wearing black dress" She answered

"Okay I'm at the entrance. See you". I said then hung up the phone due to my nervousness.

It's already 8:25. I feel nervous inside my chest. I need to be relaxed. I check my things, especially the poem that has a good smell and the white roses. Hope she likes this gift.

5 minutes passed, and I saw a woman in black dress so I approached her. My chest is pounding, this is the feeling when I'm reciting my science subject. I need to be calm, so as not to be weird in her sight. I approached her, I was about to hold her hand and suddenly.

"Excuse me, do I know you?' the girl in a black dress asked.

"Sorry Miss, i thought you're my friend" i excused. It's 8:30 PM and she's late. Where is she?

I tried to contact her phone but it just kept ringing. I tried to text her.

" Call me when you receive this - Dave"

I waited for her for about 20 minutes. The fireworks will start in 10 minutes and her presence is not here. Is there traffic today? I tried to call her many times but it just kept ringing and ringing. I texted her many times but no reply.

"Where are you Stel? You're supposed to be here" I asked.

The people start to stand up because the fireworks will start at 1 minute. Still Stella is not here. I contacted her tita-mommy and she said that Stella had already left their house. I was startled when the fireworks began. It's so beautiful but it would be even more beautiful if she were here. I call her again and again but it keeps ringing and ringing. I started to get nervous. She's not the person who will not show up. I decided to go to the place where we often go.

I'm walking along the street when I stop at a television store. My knee suddenly weakened, my elbows started to paralyzed, and my tears fell when I heard the news.

"A 19 year old young woman was hit by a running SUV in the middle of the road. The driver of the SUV said that the car lost brakes and he didn't notice that there was girl walking along the sidewalks"

"Don't tell me that is Stella, don't tell me no" I said while I'm in the middle of my tears. My phone rings and it is an unknown number. I answered it.

"Hello?" I said with a cold voice.

"Are you the friend of Ms. Magsalin?" The man asked on the phone.

"Yes. Why?" I answered.

"We're the station 6 Police Crime Division, i would like to tell you that- Ms. Magsalin was hit by-"

"Where's the freaking hospital?!" I shout while in tears. I didn't let him finish what he was going to say.

"At Saint Luke's Hospital," the man answered. I hung up the phone and find a taxi to go to the hospital.

After I arrived at the hospital. I proceed to the nurse desk.

"Stella!" I shout at the hospital, and a nurse approaches me.

"My- my girlfriend, she's been hit by a car. She's in the emergency room right now right? Can I see her?" I'm panicking right now, I don't know what to do. I feel paralyzed. My knees are getting weak and my tears don't stop.

I saw tita-mommy coming from the nurse, so I called her. "Tita-mommy, Stella, Stella is-" I said while crying.

"The police tell me what happened. Where's my daughter?" She asked the nurse with a worrying tone of voice. You'll see the worry and tears of tita-mommy

"Ma'am and Sir, stay calm. The doctors are doing their best just to save the patient". The nurse explained l.

"What do you mean stay calm?! My girl is right there suffering from pain and you'll just tell me to calm down?!" I said. I don't know what's happening to me. All I know is Stella is suffering right now and I'm not with her.

"Sir please calm down okay? The Doctors are doing their best. Just calm down" the nurse explained. Tita-mommy, touches my shoulder saying to keep calm and sit down for a while.

"The doctors will do their best Dave" tita-mommy said with a worried voice but calm. I can see in her face that she's worrying so much about Stella. I don't know what to do if lose Stella, she's my family.

"Please don't leave me Ste" i said to myself

Hours have passed, she's still in the emergency room. The nurse told us to wait here for the results. I stayed calm as long as possible but I'm still getting nervous about what the doctor will say to us. Seconds later a doctor came out from the room and walked towards us.

"Please be safe my love" I prayed. Tita-mommy is restless. She's worrying about what the doctor will say. The doctor takes a deep breath and speaks.

"Ma'am and Sir. I'm sorry. We do our best but she cannot make it. I'm sorry" The doctor said.

My knees got down and my hand felt paralyzed. I cannot feel my tears. I cannot hear all the noises of the hospital. I cannot feel the cry of tita-mommy. I feel pain, a pain that cannot be explained. I was in the corridor kneeling in pain.

"Stella? Why? Stella!" I shout while crying. "Stella, why? Why did you leave me? Stella!"

Tita-mommy weaned me but I'm still crying and crying in pain. The person I've been with in so many years is gone, the person who's there for me, the person who take care of me, the person I love, my piece, my paradise, she's gone.

Is this faith or a curse? I want to be happy but they take it away from me. I want to breathe but they can't give me oxygen. I want to be loved but they don't want to. Is this faith or a curse? Could the faith do this on purpose or a curse that's in myself?

It's so unfair.