Pen's Curse

VII (Finale)

2 Weeks Later

"How are you, my love?" I asked. I decided to visit Stella's grave after I didn't attend her funeral. "It's hard for me to attend your funeral. Until now I still haven't accepted that you are gone. Tita-mommy said that she keeps dreaming of you. In her dreams you're finding me, here i am now"

"I miss you, I miss you so much,'' I said with tears in my eyes. "If i can go back to the past. I'll fetch you. I'm sorry, I'm sorry that I'm not with you when you're suffering from pain. I'm sorry I didn't protect you. I'm sorry my love".

"I can call you love right?" I teased her. "Tita-mommy told me that you have admired me since we were in high school. So I'm that someone right?" I asked while I was in tears. "I admire you too, I'm scared to confess actually I will tell this on our date but this happens. I know you're listening, you have big ears I know. I admire you, I'm just scared, scared of being rejected and scared of losing our friendship. Life is unfair right? We want to be happy but the faith doesn't like it."

"Is this our faith? Or curse?' I asked while in tears. "I told you my poem has a curse, people leave me every time I dedicate a poem and yes I made you a poem. The biggest regret of my life is the time I made you this poem. I didn't think about what the outcome would be. I didn't even know that I was the person you were referring to in that introduction of yours."

"Maybe this is our faith and curse, the faith that tells us that we're for each other but not this time. A curse that tells us that don't make any poems so you won't be left behind. I really miss you Stella".

A cold air breeze touches my body. It feels like a hug from a person. I feel Stella, I feel her presence. She's hugging me right now. I want this feeling a little more.

"Yes, you miss me too, I know," I said to tease her. The cold air disappear and the presence of her body is gone. "Thank you for hugging me, my love," I said.

"Before I leave, I want you to read this poem I made before the accident. I made this for you, I hope you'll like it." I left the envelope on her grave. "Gotta go, I have science class, that boring subject. I will visit you again later after class. I love you Ste. Read the poem". After that I walk with tears in my eyes. She's happy now in heaven with her mom. I hope she likes my poem.

"Ang Unang Tula para kay Stella"

Ang pagka-alila sa kamay mo'ng hindi mahigpit kung gumapos

Marahan lang ang paghawak, tiyak na hindi ako mapapaos

Malalim lang ang bawat hinga

Sa bawat labas ng salitang sasabihing, sasambahin kita

Gusto kong magsulat,

Bumuo ng bagong pamagat

Hayaan mong ika'y aking maging pahina,

Na naglalaman ng larawan mo at litrato sinta

Bigyan liwanag mo ako sa madilim kong dako sa bawat tinta

Magsilbi kang gabay saking mapagdadaanang mga pahina

Maisusulat kita,

Aking paksa

Hayaan mo akong isulat ang iyong pangalan

Kilalanin ang buhay mong taalarawan

Hayaan mong ikaw ang bawat paksa na aking mga tula

Mapusong bibigkasin ang bawat magagawang mga salita

Hindi ka hahayaang malunod sa kadiliman ng pinakatatago mong mga kalungkutan

May mainit na bisig na lalapat sayo sa tuwing ika'y hirap na tumahan

Sasagipin ka sa dagat ng takot

Magiging balsa upang maitawid ka sa lungkot

Bawat buhay mo'y papasadahan

Walang lalagpasan kasiyahan man o kalungkutan,

Sa'king balikat ka matulog

Pangakong kakantahan ka ng magandang musika't mga tugtog

Ika'y sumandal lang sa aking tabi

Hayaan lang natin na lumagpas at umakap satin ang malamig na gabi

Pag naglaon ay hintayin naman natin ang matamis na umaga,

Isa kang magandang pahina Stella.

Sometimes we're afraid to confess to someone, we're scared of being rejected or unloved and if that person gets into a relationship, you'll regret that you didn't tell her that you like her. Tell your feelings right away. When the person rejects you, move on at least the process will start. Unlike you'll never tell your feelings but in the end you will regret it.

Time is gold. If you admire someone, tell them, if you love someone, tell them, if you're with someone right now touch them. Because we don't even know what will happen in the next few days, next hours or months. Learn how to nourish time with your partner, learn to speak when you have feelings, and learn to move if that's what your heart wants. We cannot get the answer unless you'll make a move. Be yourself, you can do it. Hurry up and tell that person that you love her. Life is short, enjoy it, face it and nourish it.

So if you're with your partner, hug them, kiss them, tell them that you'll stay for them. Tell them that you'll never leave them through ups and downs, to richer and poorer and to sickness and health. Because we don't even know what will happen next, maybe a disaster or tragedy.

Tell your someone that you like and love them, you have nothing to lose. Don't emulate me. I don't know what to say, just grab the opportunity always. Keep that in mind.

We can't even say if this is Faith or a curse. The only thing that lives in my heart is that.

"You'll always be in my heart Stella. Until the next time my long lost page"