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Chapter 23- its my fault

Authors note:

Sorry I haven't been writing guys I've just had massive writers block.

It has taken me forever to write this chapter

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I woke up to the smell of pancakes coming from downstairs.

I walked into the downstairs kitchen and chad was cooking pancakes in his p'j bottoms leaving his abbs on show.

"shit wtf why arn't they working" he asked himself "oh my god I cant cook"

I just stood there checking him out.

he turned around "were you judging my cooking skills?" he joked

"yeah your such a bad chef. move out the way so that I can cook them ya idiot" I laughed "nah but I was just checking you out"

"well who wouldn't check me out?" he posed "im just HAAAAAAAAWT!" he laughed dragging out the A, as he moved so that I could cook.

"dude they are sticking cause there is no oil in the pan you dipshit" I joked.

"well that isn't my problem that is yours now" he gave me a cheeky smile and sat at the breakfast bar.

"we have school tomorrow" I sighed.

chad glared at me "can we just say you have a doctor appointment?"

"yeah! not!"

"please mom" he pleaded jokily.

"nope" I said and served the pancakes "now shut up and eat"

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we decided to stay home today and watch divergent because we fell aslweep watching it last night.

we laid down on the couch in our p'js with heaps of pillows and blankets.

we were half way through the movie and I had to run to the bathroom because I needed to puke.

I puked up blood and all of my food that I had in my stomach.

we decided to go to the hospital so my mom picked us up and drove us there.

I asked my mom if it was normal with pregnancy and she said she never had it which got me worried.

they did some tests and had me waiting in the waiting room where I had puked another 3 times.

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after waiting a couple of hours the doctor came to me and we went into a room to talk

i was shaking of nervousness because the doctor looked really serious.

I grabbed my mom and chads hands and we sat in the chairs in front of a desk.

"I'm afraid I have some bad news" the doctor looked down "I'm sorry to tell you this but you have had a miscarriage

Had and saw that his jaw had dropped and that his eyes were starting to water.

"hey its ok, don't worry about it I know we were looking forward to seeing a baby that we made but its life" I said rubbing my thumb on the back of his hand as tears ran down my face.

I know we were going to but the baby up for adoption but when you hear that the little thing had died well anyone would cry.

chad looked to me "I'm ok" he wiped away my tears "hey at least we don't have to give the little guy away and not know who it is going to and how it will be treated."

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Authors note:
Hey guys so sorry i havent updated when i saved this chapter it delete it cause i was on my laptop and then changed to my phone so im going to post the rest as the next chapter. hope you enjoyed!