𝑻𝒆 𝒐𝒅𝒊𝒐 -robin arellano

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I wake up and take a quick breath because it feels like I ran out of air. I'm sweaty and cold at the same time and I have this disgusting feeling you have after a nightmare.

Was it a nightmare?
It all felt so real...

I wipe some sweat of off my forehead and look down at finney. He staid at my room for the night because he was worried I guess. He's cute. Im happy to have him as my twin brother.

I don't know anyone else who is as caring as him, or as smart, or as cute.. well besides robin.

I quietly stand up so I don't wake him up. I go to the bathroom and take a quick shower because I really feel disgusting.

After I finished I grab a towel and go back to my room to dress up. I grab some basic stuff to wear. A brown top and a light jeans that looks really nice. I grab my black converse because I wanna wear them today. After that I grab an old back from my mom and start packing it with stuff. I grab my cigarettes, some weed I got from a friend of mine, papers to roll it, my notebook, my pen, my lighter, a jacket if it gets cold, a camera and my knife.

When I finished packing I decided to wear some earrings to my outfit. When I'm finally done with everything I grab the bag and go down the stairs to get to the kitchen.

I'm surprised to see that my dad is still sleeping. But I'm also kinda happy about it because that means I don't need to see him.

I get something to eat real quick and then I walk outside.

The sun was already up in the clouds. It was pretty hot today but that didn't matter for me. I look around and think about what I could do today.

I decided to go to robins house just to see if he was okay and if he could hang out because I don't have anything to do today and it would be pretty boring for me.

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"Hey mrs. arellano is Robin here?" I say as his mom opens the door. She looks at me with a cute smile and then goes to get robin. I stand there alone and play with my hair because I don't know what else to do.

After 5 mins he finally stands in front of me, with his stupid grin. I roll my eyes and ask him if we can hang out and he just says sure. The next thing I know is that he grabs me by my hand and pulls me inside.

"What the fuck? I thought we would hang OUT?" I say. "Yeah but I need to get ready... or do you want me to go like this?" Now I see that he's wearing his pyjamas. I look away in embarrassment and shake my head for him as an answer to his question. "See." He says as he walks up to his room. Probably to change clothes.

I wait here and count the photos on the wall. There were some baby photos of Robin, and damn it! He was such a cute baby. I chuckle as I see another baby photo of him.

On the photo he had a huge grin and held Ice cream in his hands. He smiles at the camera like he won something. He was so happy just because of that little ice cream.

He was so cute. Well not was. He still is the cutest idiot I know but you know as a baby it just hits different.

I don't think that my dad has any baby or just child photos of us hanging around somewhere. I don't wanna say that he hates us. But I know that he definitely doesn't love us.

It kinda hurts when you think about the fact that the only parent you have left, hates you. And you don't even know why. Gwen said that he acts like this because I look to much like mom and he can't handle this pain to see "her" everyday.

Well that's a good excuse to beat the shit out of your daughter isn't it?

"You ready?"