Our Past and Perhaps Our Future?

Break-up

Annyeong haseyo, how is everyone? Good? Alright?

This will be a full-on angst chapter (well it depends on how much you care about Ryuryeong's relationship) so get some tissues before you start. By the way I was thinking about a Yuna POV? You won't be partners with the Itzy members for a while btw cuz let's just say they've got a lot to figure out :D - you'll start again once Ryujin decides to take on cases again.

RYUJIN POV:

Do it now or she dies, NOW or she's gone forever and she won't be coming back. My conscience screamed at me like a madwoman bugging me to fall off the roof and die. I would rather that than anything else right now, Junsu's words bothered me as much as losing Yeji, "You were selfish for that decision."

Was he right? His logic seemed reasonable, at least it was enough to have me here pouring a river out of my eyes and doubling the weight of my pillow just by stuffing my face in it. I heard a small, fox-like trot coming straight to the door of our room a soft with a soft knock following straight after. Doesn't take a genius to know who it is.

"Jagiya~ Dinner's ready." She chimed with the voice of an angel playing a harp, damn it Chaeryeong why do you make it so hard to leave you? Getting no response she knocked again, "If anything's wrong you can't talk to me... don't hide there..."
Another string of tears rolled down my cheek, act well Ryujin, and I bid her enter, her face was all happy-smiley until she saw my back turn facing the door - I don't need to see her to know that, a vibe is a vibe. Her hand reached for my shoulder but I shoved it off, stifling my tears as they fell on to my lap. You made me weak jagi, I don't want to hurt you, I can't. The bed sank down behind me, I felt her soothing my back then I turned around and slapped her hand, telling her to stay away. Her eyes became glossy and she backed away to her desk, safe from all my violence and madness, where she could breathe properly - my heart stung at the sight.

"Let's talk." I demanded as coldly as I could muster. It's difficult isn't it? Being cold to the one who always warms you up inside on your wintry days, being cold to your cloudy day's sun, throwing your light and hope into the darkness of despair. Sometimes the necessary doesn't come like butter on bread and it's certainly not always a walk in the park. My jagi looked at the floor... actually no, I don't deserve to call her mine anymore I picked up her heart, soothed it and now I'm shattering it to the floor. Vindictive, she doesn't deserve a selfish rattlesnake like me.

CHAERYEONG POV:

"Let's talk."

The sheer unforgiving tone of it threw me in to pain that I never knew existed, "O-oh o-okay..."

I thought she would turn around to see if I was alright, to care enough to check up on me and let me see if she too was alright; she does try and hide her tears from me but I'm not deaf nor blind, I can hear plus see those tears. Say that I take advantage of her love by expecting her to do these things whilst she's hurt but lovers are partners who care deeply about each other, aniyo? I didn't take her emotions out of regard either so say and think what you want because I don't give a damn right now, all I care about is my love in front of me regardless on her tone or whatnot she's still, well, Ryujin.

"I'm sorry Chaeryeong."

'Chaeryeong', does she want to break off with me completely? No ties, nothing. Sure, we could break up and stay friends but even as friends she would call me by Jagi not my lawful name, Lee Chaeryeong. Plus the hell is she sorry about? Did she cheat on me? Did she talk about me behind my back? Is she about to have a temper outburst and is apologising prior? All sorts of possibilities ran through my mind, even thinking that she tried to order something for us but it got lost on the way here, reasons stretching from reasonable to absolutely flabbergastingly fatuous.

"Nae...?" I asked, my voice shaking and my jaw quivering with fear for her response. She suddenly banged her head on the bed frame and I rushed over to her to check if she was bleeding or bleeding badly, thankfully it was just a bruise. I was about to get downstairs to grab an icepack for her forehead but I felt a hand grab my wrist stopping my from leaving, would this be the last time I feel her touch? Just as I was savouring it her hand away from mine and back to her side causing me to whine at the loss.

"Let's break up."

Her words cut deeper than a knife, my face paled and my heartbeat fastened at her statement. Tears stained my cheeks as it fell down my now cloudy eyes like a flowing river approaching a waterfall, her eyes spoke softened when saw me, she attempted to reach for my cheek but I dodged it. She knew my heart was fragile, I trusted her with it and she threw it to the ground. As I was leaving she muttered something under her breath, as quiet as a whisper but still audible, "Jagi, you know a lot of things, but there are some things that you can't know... that I want to protect you from."

I spun around and I saw her head drooped down facing the floor, the name switch shocked me, I thought she wanted to get rid of me? She looked up at me, stunned I was still here, with puppy eyes begging for understanding. Those eyes... I could never resist them so I went to her bowing to give her the last (I assume) hug that we will share off-cam together, "What are you protecting me from?"

"If I told you I wouldn't be keeping my promise to you." She replied and I sighed at this, she was protecting me again. I'm grateful for it, yes, but isn't it tiring keeping it so hardcore? Can't she take a break, it makes me feel guilty being the source of her stress. I've talked to her about it yet she's been stubborn, refusing to do anything unless she's assured that I'm safe, well what can I say? I can only hope she gets out of whatever it is this time alive, luck doesn't come twice.

Leaving the room and making my way to Yeji's bedroom, I felt myself break down from everything. I curled up into a tight ball on her bed and let the tears slowly fall down my face to her blanket, she's gone but I still hear her soothing me, it's too much to handle at once. A death of a second-sister, the sudden appointment of leadership - which no doubt will make people think I murdered her - and then this. This heart-breaking break-up, we promised not leave each other and here we are! Guess the world just decided to be like: Chaeryeong, go to hell. I punched the pillow at least a dozen and cried myself to sleep.

I hoped you enjoyed this chapter! Annyeong~

[I JUST REALISED THE SONG REFERENCES WELL UM OKAY- SIKE I AIN'T CHANGING THEM]