Messed Up Nights

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Umm, well... A little update on me? Well it's Sunday. I legit wasted half of it, and am still wasting. Tomorrow is my viva in history and surprise viva in eng. Lit.

Still I ain't studyin. Why? This. Lol no, it ain't like that, just that, today I gave my younger brother (bout 5 years younger) all lectures on Sanskrit. Well, he basically got 19 out of 50 in a Hindi paper and doesn't wish to listen to anyone nor discuss the question paper. So I lectured him today all about how Hindi (language used in India).

All about how all sorts of languages are derived from Sanskrit and how beautiful the language is.

That fathead doesn't get a thing. But the thing is, I wish I could lecture myself like that. I mean, further I told him all the philosophy bout Jainism, Buddhism, Hinduism, how long and old our scripts are and how scientific it all is.

For a few weeks now, I have been meaning to learn Sanskrit and a few more programming languages. But I waste a lot of time. Trust me I have tried everything.

Every morning, my alarm starts ringing from 4 am. Those alarms aren't alarms but horrible sirens and sounds, wait lemme add em.

And the last one here is my favourite ringtone lmao. Well, when these alarms start ringing, oh my, the way it scares my mother and brother sleeping beside.

But on the other hand, me, whose ears are just beside the phone aren't able to hear anything.

The sad part, I disturb everyone from four but cannot disturb 0.01% of myself. I mean how's this possible?? Do I sleep so deeply? Lol.

And at times, I really did had to wake up at 4 am to do some hw, and the fear of me not getting up...

For this, I would had to wake up all night, do all sorts of hw, sleep in mornin, then again wake up at 6am for school. My ridiculous amounts of energy drained.

I even tell my mom to kick me, beat me, slam those flip flops on my face, just please wake me up... And all she replies is, "If the person has to wake up he or she will wake up at any cost! At your age we had two tuitions..." Anddd the story continues.

I wish I had some mechanism that would wake me anyhow. How am I supposed to reach my goals if I don't have enough time?? Or maybe I just don't know time management lol.

Well, my routine is Smth like,
7am to 3pm school, then 3.30pm to 7pm tuition. Till the time I come home its already 7.30pm. My meal time arrives. From 7.30 to 8.30 I waste my time, eating, chilling, being at peace.

From 8.30pm I watch some Naruto, and when I look at the clock its already 9.30 pm, and also the thing is... I forget my hw. Why? Idk, i got some real short term memory. So short that I even forgot that I had this account the other day.

Anyways, what was I talking about? My time table, right. So, after 9.30pm I try to remember my hw, but spend it on doing math problems. At 11pm, my friends remind me by asking,"Ayoo you done this hw? Please send me."

I literally wish to kill them. All day after, they telling me at night that there was some hw, notebooks gotta be submitted tmrw and now I won't be getting any sleep.

So you see how bad this schedule is? I tried to do everything to correct it. Well, in my house, idk bout you, but we usually have dinner around 11pm and sleep at 12.

I tried to change the sleepin schedule to 10pm but yeah, its my mother's house, her house, her rules. I literally fought for time changes like literally but them. They don't get it. So I would usually tell them not to make me any dinner and would eventually go to sleep.

But this didn't help either. I mean what am I? Sleepin monster? Needs all 24 hourse sleep? Why can't my butt just wake up in the morn??

Ufff. And, above all this, my hw will still be left. I would hurry to school and do that hw. Also, I'm in a class where all toppers are sitting, basically the ones who score above 85% and I bet this year, Im gonna fail real bad. Real bad.

Anyways, I was stressed with this history, feeling good rn, not very good but yeah I'm at ease. By my English and above shit, you can guess my age by now :))

If you made it till here,
Thankyou so muchieee (~￣³￣)~
Bye