Lavish ~ mgc

4-7 Rings

Wearing a ring, but ain't gon' be no "Mrs"
Bought matching diamonds for six of my bitches
I'd rather spoil all my friends with my riches
Think retail therapy my new addiction

Shopping. Retail therapy. Spending money on useless stuff to make herself feel better. Call it what you want but that is exactly what Cora needed to do after the night and morning that she's had so far. She's frustrated that Michael keeps popping up in her life and even more so that Pia really suggested she give him somewhat of a chance before she completely tears him down. Normally she would ask Pia to join her but being that she was part of the problem, today she settled for going alone. However, that just meant that Cora was alone with her thoughts.

Why do I keep having these thoughts about that man? Come on Cora, that man has a name, and you know that. At least have the decency to refer to him as Michael. No, I don't have to refer to him as anything or even care for that matter. He doesn't matter to me. Why am I even thinking so much about this? He has no relevance in my life and never will.

Suddenly Cora felt something strange in her heart. Something that she didn't think she could feel ever again. A slight ache in her heart. Sadness you would say.

Now wait a minute, why does the thought of him not being in my life kind of make me feel a little bit of sadness? What is wrong with me? I need to get my act together and realize he probably is just out to use me as all the other guys do. Why would he be any different?

If only someone could tell her to make a mental note of this conversation with herself because Michael will eventually prove to her that he is VERY different from anyone else.

Cora admit to yourself that he has in some way made an impact on you just the few times you've seen him. Also, you can't deny that he is not lacking in the looks depart-NO STOP THAT RIGHT THIS SECOND! Don't you DARE go there! Someone like him doesn't belong with someone like you. It would be a privilege to be with you; that's not a privilege he deserves. At least I don't think he does...do I?

Her thoughts were interrupted by a voice saying, "How many times are you going to walk around the same wrack of clothes?". Cora didn't realize that she was walking in a circle for the past five minutes.

"As long as I am a paying customer, I will continue to walk around this wrack of clothes thank you very much.", Cora spats back at the worker.

The thing is that yes, she may come across as this rude, spoiled, downright mean person but the truth of the matter is that deep down inside, there's a sliver of a girl that just wants to be shown unconditional love and happiness. Cora just wants someone to prove to her that not everyone in this filthy world is terrible or all about their status in life. She wants someone to show her the finer, smaller things that make the world beautiful. She wants someone to show her that no matter what she's like on the outside, what really matters is what's on the inside. She wants someone to break down her very built-up walls.

Was this something that she was going to make an easy task? Hell no! If that day ever comes, that person will have produced an insane amount of blood, sweat, and tears before they can be crowned successful at breaking down the walls of Fort Knox, or should I say, Fort Cora.

What could've happened for someone in their early twenties to have built up such a wall?

Let's go back a few years...