Trying So Hard To Get Over You [BXB]

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Nik's POV
A week later
I get to school that morning and I tell Miles what college I get into as soon as I see him and he says "really?" I nod saying "yeah." He hugs me saying "congratulations, Nikki." I say "it was my first choice!" He says "and I'm so proud of you" kissing me and he says "what do you have?"

I say "calculus" and Miles says "my boyfriend is so smart" smiling. I say "you are passing three AP courses. So are you" kissing him.

I made him take AP Humanities these past couple years with me then we decided to take AP Biology. He gets recognized as being a three season athlete and taking several AP classes at a time. Its gonna look really good on college applications. We have tried to take at least three AP classes a year and if we pass all of them, we do something extra special over the summer.

We saved money to get an airBnB for a week on the same beach we had our first kiss on last year because we passed AP English, history, and physics. Our parents paid like forty percent of it because my parents love Miles and his love me. We paid the rest of it though. We were very proud that we paid for most of it.

I say "I gotta go. I love you, I'll see you at lunch?" Miles says "I love you too. Yeah, I'll see you at lunch" smiling and he kisses me.

I go to calculus and I wait for the day to be over.

When art gets over, I walk to lunch and this kid keeps looking at me all through art and when we leave. I wave then I get to the lunch room. I see Miles and I still see the kid when I look over my shoulder. I sit in his lap and he kisses my neck saying "I saved a spot for you ya know." I say "don't look but this guy is staring at me. Has been since the beginning of art" taking his hat off and running my fingers through his soft shaggy hair. He looks around the room and sees him saying "he's still staring."

I hear one his football player friends say "we don't get a hello?" I chuckle saying "hello, I'm trying to get rid of a creep. Just turn your heads for a second" deeply kissing my boyfriend. He moves his hand really low on my back and keeps a hand on the front of my neck.

I smile and I bury my head in his shoulder. One of the guys say "I think it worked" and I say "good."

We finish lunch and we start walking back to our classes. Miles says "hey I gotta tell you something" quietly and I lean against my locker saying "yeah?" He says "I can't do this anymore" quietly and I say "Miles, what are you talking about?" He practically whispers "I'm breaking up with you" and I practically break down then and there. I say "can you at least tell me why?"

He says "I just can't do it anymore! I don't even know if I love you anymore!" He has tears in his eyes and I just start crying at this poor boy in front of me. Now people are looking. They know. Miles isn't one to yell but when he does, it's terrifying to others but not to me. I say "is this about college?" Miles says "no, it's that I just can't" hitting his head against the locker.

I say "I'm going home" kissing him for the last time in awhile. He kisses back, resting his hand on my cheek, and he kisses back just so softly. He makes me want to cry even more. I stare into his eyes and then I go to my car. I hit my head on the steering wheel and just cry my eyes out. A couple people start coming over to my car and almost as soon as they get over here, I pull out of the parking lot.

I just don't even know what to say. I didn't even see it coming. He's was never distant. He texted me last night saying he loved me and goodnight like always. He talked to me this morning and everything.

I'm not gonna find a boy like this one again.

I get home and I go to my room, my mom saying "what happened?" I say "nothing" and she says "fine, I'm here when you wanna talk." I go to my room and just cry until I fall asleep.

Mile's POV
I go home after school and I grab the mail. I see a letter from the same school that Nik got into. I go up to my room saying "I didn't get in." I chuck the envelope on my desk, leaving it unopened. I'm just gonna assume that I didn't.  That school is almost an Ivy League acceptance rate and I'm not the smartest tool in the shed. So, I'm just not gonna bother with the rejection and leave it sealed till I can get the courage to open it. I'll say it, I'm a fucking coward. I break up with my boyfriend and not tell him why and I can't handle the rejection of a college that I applied for. I lay on my bed and I just let the tears go. I mumble "my god, what am I doing?"

I met this boy two years ago and he changed my life. I don't know how he's changed it but he has. I still love him but my god, I just had to. I had to break up with him because I didn't want us to fall out of love because we had to do long distance. Go through it while were doing essentially nothing, during the calm before the storm of high school. The beginning of senior year. It would just be putting the heartbreak off if I did it sophomore year of college when we talked once a week rather than if I do it now.