~a few minutes later~
There was a knock at the door, it had to be Mark so I slowly opened the door. It was him.
"Hey" I said hugging him
"Come in" I continued.
He sat down on the edge of the bed. He remained silent as I began to speak.
"Why so quiet? You're not usually this quiet "
"No reason" he said in a faded tone
"Mark you don't have to be here, I just wanted to talk to you about what happened and you're not even saying anything" I said starting to get upset
He sighed "Maya I want to be here, I'm just nervous about being here and what you might say"
"What could I possibly say that you would be afraid of?"
"Maya, I'm scared you might never want me in your life again, I'm afraid you'll move on without me, I don't want you out my life Maya I need you." He said about to cry while putting his head down
I walked over towards him, lifting his chin so his head would rise up and meet my eyes.
"Mark look at me."
He slowly moved his eyes to connect with mine.
"I don't want to lose you either, I would never not want you in my life. We've been through so much and I can't see my future without you Mark, you've been my one and only true friend that actually cared about me but......" I took a deep sigh as tears started to roll down my face. "We can't do this anymore, I mean. Trey....he's gone." I said slightly chuckling like I knew I fucked up. "He's gone Mark I fucked everything up, he's not coming back anytime soon. I really cared about him but didn't mind he was walking out that door, now what? I regret everything I said to him. He won't take me back, it's over"
"Maya I'm sorry, but I can't stay here and listen to this okay? Why? Because I love you Maya. I still do. I only dated Ashley to get over you, it only worked for a while till you came back here. I love you Maya please don't leave me" he said while tears ran down his face while looking me dead in the eyes.
"Mark......I can't, I'm sorry we can't be together I love you but I'm not in love with you my heart belongs to Trey"
"Then why the fuck did you kiss me in the first place, why the fuck did you show me so much fucking emotions when you came back Maya were you just trying to play me? Your heart belongs to Trey but where is he now? If he really belonged to you he wouldn't have left."
"I don't know mark! Okay I don't fucking know why I kissed you. fuck you for even saying that he wouldn't have left I said I fucking screwed up okay! That doesn't stop me from loving him."
It all went blank when I felt a sharp sting on my right cheek. He slapped me.
"Mark...you..." I said looking up at him. His eyes were filled with shock like he didn't know what he had done.
"Oh my god Maya, I'm so sorry, I didn't mean...." He said trying to hug me while I was holding my face.
"Get away from me Mark. Now." I said backing up from him.
"Maya please I didn't mean to slap you, I don't know what took over me I'm so sorry please Maya I'm sorry."
"I think you should go now." I said staring straight into his eyes. He saw that I saw hurt, confused, and damaged.
"Okay Maya. If you think it's for the best I'll go, please call me later."
"Bye Mark"
~marks pov~
What have I just done. I slapped the love of my life, I've never laid my hands on her like that ever! I was so scared, i didn't know what I did. I hope she understands how sorry I am.
What am I saying. She'll never talk to me again....
