her, my first.
bellaisandre
9th of december 2021.
never in my life i would’ve thought i will fall for someone who has the same gender as mine. i‘ve always pushed my self i only adore an opposite of me, where in the matter of fact, i am slowly liking the thought of me falling in love with an eve.
unexpected scenario came like a lightning, my adoration for an adam suddenly ghosted my senses. i was hesitant at first, i could not accept the fact i am slowly turning into what i have been daydreaming. how lovely would it feel for me to love an eve? such thought gives me unexplainable butterflies.
she may not be the first eve i got a crush on, hence, she‘s the first one i‘ve shed a tear on. how ironic, i made a promise not to cry over my young love, yet i‘ve cried the day you bid me farewell, love.
my young love, my first love. my lovely eve, i am still tearing over the mere fact we aren’t meant to be together. you gave light on to my dark and dull world, you poured some sweet and sultry honey on to my damp mountain. simply, you are the missing piece of my incomplete puzzled life.
it was a puppy love, is what they say. however, we can't be together. our ages made our admiration for each other impossible. i was a young, naive teenager who‘s still in the pace of maturity, and you're an adult, starting to grasp what life really is, who’s already matured enough to accept a young woman in her life.
should i stop my admiration for you, my eve? how can i stop my naive self from my invulnerable addiction towards you, please help me. the brain i am carrying still can't accept the fact, i wasn't made for you and you weren't made for me. our feelings may be mutual, but we both know we're not made for each other.
i may not be putting my feelings for you an end for now, but i will still adore you from afar. i will still watch you from afar, from the possible way i only know how. i won‘t ask you to repay my puppy love, hence, i am grateful our paths have crossed once. how i wish it will happen in the near future once again. this may not be the end, but i still like you, my first.
yours truly,
once your love.
