When i say i feel like dying i don't want some angry, violent death that revolves around grief and sadness.
I don't want people i love seeing me as a dark person. I'm not evil and demonic I'm different. I don't want to spend my last moments standing over a bridge watching the water churn below me the same way the thoughts move in my head. I don't want to cause people to grieve and morn my absence wishing i was different.
No. I want it to be peaceful. I want to be alone. Like an animal in the woods, lying on the ground listening to the buzz of nature. I want to feel the grass between my fingers, the setting sun warming my skin. Laying on my side, closing my eyes and smiling to myself, knowing my lungs won't need to remember to breathe, my fingers won't get any more calluses, my blood won't need to circulate much longer, my aching bones can be still, my muscles can finally release, and i can let my tired body rest. At last i feel true peace.
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Randomthis is some of my story and hopefully this can help people feel more connected confident and understood. there's so many people in the world who need to hear that it will be ok but they don't. Hopefully this can help some lone soul out there. If th...
