Poison // a.b.

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A/N: THANK YOU SO FREAKING MUCH FOR 1K I DIDNT THINK THIS MANY PEOPLE WOULD LIKE TO READ MY SUCKY WRITING THANK YOUUU

Recap: theyre all at the mall and Alex and Ellie are at hot topic

Ellie POV

I held up a Sleeping With Sirens sweater to my chest and looked in the mirror. Not bad, but I only had $20 to spend on clothes, and I was going to have to choose wisely.

I look over to see Alex trying on the most ridiculous pair of glasses I have ever seen in my entire life. He looks over at me and makes a duck face with a peace sign.

I smack his chest. "Don't sass me," I scolded him, "I'm punk rock!"

He burst out laughing. "I can see that from your My Little Pony sweater! Why are you even wearing a sweater? It's 80 degrees out!"

I pouted, "My Little Pony can be punk rock. See, the pony is black!"

He just burst out laughing again. "You're too cut- uh, cunfuzzled?" He said it like it was a question that needed answering.

"Alexander Behlendorf," I put a hand to my chest, "Did you just call me cute?"

"No! Hurry up and pay for your stuff, let's get out of here." He suddenly acted all grumpy.

"Aw," I piched his cheek, "looks like grumpy pants here got up on the wrong side of the bed."

He just grumbled while I purchased my sweater. I swayed my head to the beat of the music, watching Alex out of the corner of my eye. I grabbed the bag of clothes and thanked the cashier and grabbed Alex.

"Why are you wearing a sweater anyways," he was still grumpy, and had chosen to latch onto the fact that I was wearing my sweater and it made me grumpy. He has no right to ask.

"Not any of your fucking business." I raised my nose in the air and let go of his hand.

He looked at me offended. "What did I say?" he scrunched up his nose in confusion.

I knew that if I said another word I might start crying, so I sped up and went to the bathroom with supernatural speed, leaving Alex behind.

I sat in a stall, refusing to cry. I let the knot in my stomach grow and grow, and fought to control it. The sting of a single tear developed in the corner of my eye, and I wiped it away in fury. I had learned years ago that the only emotion that can overpower sadness is anger. So, inside of my sunny exterior, I'm a volcano ready to blow up.

As I regain my composure, I let my mind wander. How did Alex get past my shell so easily? It made no sense. I took in a deep breath. No need to ponder it now, I know my brain won't let me sleep until I figure it out.

I walked out of the bathroom to see Alex pacing and muttering, his face lighting up, then dimming, when he sees me walk out with my puffy red eyes and indifferent face.

"Are you oka-" he started but I held up a hand.

"Let's just go home." my voice was raspy from all the emotions swirling inside.

He held up my Hot Topic bag and said in a low voice, "Um, you forgot this..."

I grabbed it from his hand and grunted my thanks.

I waled toward the doors of the mall, not really caring if he followed or not. Suddenly I felt a jerk on my left wrist.

"Ellie, I can't ignore this. You blew up just because I mentioned wearing long sleeves......... We have to talk."

I tugged my hand away. "It's none of your business. For all you know I might be on my period or something, so back the fuck off."

"I know that's not it." his looked down so his face was level with mine. I hadn't really noticed how tall he was before. "I know there's something else, and you have to tell me."

By now, we were standing in the parking lot, and I was drained of all my energy. I lifted my tired eyes to his bright ones. I sighed.

"Just.... let's just get home first okay?" my voice was barely a whisper.

He nodded curtly and got in the car. "Let's go then."

I climbed in and resigned to scheming up a lie to tell him. He can't know the truth.

No one can know the truth.

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ooh its gettin serious up in here no more fluff :))) I was listening to Shawn Mendes while writing this lol

~K