How it all works out

Tears and rain, confessions and pain

 HELLO MY  STUNNING READERS! I am sooooo majorly sorry for taking so long to update, i know im terrible. BUT I SWEAR ILL TRY TO GET FASTER AT THIS. I decided that i will update the story every time a chapter gets seven votes ! so, please, if youre reading this, vote vote vote ! <333 oh and if you want a dedication, just ask :) WARNING: this chapter is kind of sad. also, listen to the song on the side as you read :) its forever&always by parachute

It has been nine days since my brother disappeared. Every second, the guilt of letting this happen to him makes me sick. The only thing that is keeping me from completely going insane right now is the time I spend with Roscious and Marc. The plans are coming together really well. The only problem: neither of them knows that I am working with both of them.

That’s just because I’m awesome and do what it takes to help those who I love. I mean, deceiving people isn’t bad when you’re doing it for a good reason….. right?

I can’t sit in this house anymore. It has been raining for the past week. I haven’t seen the sun in so long I feel like I live in a cave.

“I always wanted to be a hermit”. I chuckle.

Okay, that’s it. I’m going outside and I don’t care if I get rained on. I’d rather be soaking and sopping wet than sit here and do nothing. I think to myself.

“It is decided then!” I declared to my empty room.  “Today! We go outside!” I shout like a victorious military leader.

Just after that, something I did not expect happened. I heard a laugh. A very familiar laugh.

“Jake?” I asked cautiously as I crept towards my balcony window.

“So she’s alive.” He replied gruffly.

I swung open the entrance to the balcony to find Jake leaning over the side, his hands clasped together around something and his head looking down. The rain was running off his hair in tiny streams. He was wearing a white shirt which was now soaked through to the point where I could see every inch of tanned skin underneath.  

“What are you doing out here in the rain?”

“I don’t know why I’m here…” he trailed off, his voice becoming shaky.

I moved to get closer to him so we could talk. Like really talk. We were best friends once upon a time before we came here and I wanted to get back to that.

He turned around and faced me. The object in his hands was made clear now. He was drinking.

“Where did you get that?” I asked him.

“Why don’t you ask prince lover boy?  Or how about that guy who comes and sees you every night?”

“I don’t know what you’re talking about.” I reply harshly.

“You honestly think I don’t know?! I may be a lot of things Rachel, but stupid is not one of them!”

“Jake, you’re drunk. Go back to your room.” I say turning on my heel.

I feel a wet hand grip my forearm. “No. I will not leave.” He retorted. “Every single night I sit in my bed. And do you know what I get to hear? I hear you laughing. You might think that It’s nice for me to hear that well guess what, It’s not!”

He loosens his grip on my arm and my hand falls back to my side.

“Hearing some guy make you that happy makes me want to die! I know that in no life will I ever be good enough for you. Don’t you see?! Everything that I do, I want to make you happy, but I never wanted you to fall for me. Because deep down inside, I knew that you deserved a man. Not someone who calls themselves a man, but someone who will care for you like he ought to!”

He backed up and sat on the chair on the balcony. “And do you know what the hardest part of it all is Rachel?”

I shake my head because I know I can’t form a word at this point.

“I always thought that one day, maybe, I might find a way to be that man.” He stuttered out, his eyes filling with tears. “The drinking, the trouble, the girls, it’s all just a filler, the only thing that makes me feel like I have a purpose, is when you smile at me. I have sat in my room for the past week wondering why you haven’t so much as made an effort to come and see me. And now, I think I know.” He said.

“Because you finally realized that I’m not who you thought I was. I just thought id save you the disappointment and leave before my heart gets ripped completely out of my chest... Goodbye Rachel. He said planting a soft kiss on my forehead, making me catch my breath. He pulled back, looked at me deep into the pits of my eyes souls and pressed a letter into my hand. Then, he did the unthinkable, He jumped. I ran to the edge of the balcony, “JAKE!”

It was raining so hard that I couldn’t see anything. Plus I was crying so hard that my vision was blurry. I ran back through my room, dropping the letter somewhere on the floor.

I burst out of my room and run as quickly as I can towards the down stairs, all I can think of is Jake hitting the ground, I can barely keep myself from hyperventilating. Why is this happening! What did I do to deserve this!

I reach the door and swing it open, I burst out onto the court yard, and the rain is coming down in whipping torrents, “Jake!”

“JAKE ARE YOU HERE?”

I scream as I run looking for where his body should be. Nothing is there. It’s just me. In the rain, I can’t stop screaming his name! Eventually my body catches up to me and I am so exhausted from yelling. The rain drowns out any noise so my screams and pleadings are empty.” I collapse on the ground, sobbing and beating the grass with my shaking fists.

I have no strength left in me. I just want to die here. He must have been dragged off by some creature, or his body got washed away down the ravine.  I can’t keep a grasp on what is real and not real the whole world is spinning. Nothing is concrete.

 I don’t know how much time passed while I was out there, all I know is I woke up next to the fire in my room. My head was incredibly fuzzy and I was not sure of anything. When all of the sudden, the memory of earlier hit me like a ton of bricks. I didn’t know what to do with myself. I began to rock back and forth crying and muttering fragments of words. I could not control my actions. I look across the floor and see an envelope with my name on it.

My heart floods with sorrow as I reach for it. I tear off the top and pull out the contents. It was nothing but a small piece of paper with three words on it, those three words that I had always waited for. “I love you.” I was completely overcome with tears and sobs. I was making ungodly noises and throwing things. I was heartbroken. I never wanted to see Roscious or Marc again as long as I lived. If I had never gotten into this with them, Jake would still be here!

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