Wait-CATS!! (Tokyo Revengers x Male reader)

Part 14

Y/n POV:
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After Eddie left I sat confused as to why he left so abruptly. Eventually, I chalked it down to Eddie being Eddie. I started eating until Mitsuya cleared his throat and said, "So, Eddie told us that you guys dated. We just wondering why you guys broke up. Eddie told us that it was up to you to tell us. You don't have to talk about it if you're not comfortable with doing so."

I tensed a bit at that. I looked up from my plate with a sigh and said, "Well, we did use to date, he wasn't lying when he said that. The reason that we broke up was because...because near the end of our relationship, I was being an asshole because of my life. I started lashing out at him and that led us to fighting almost always. I was just so angry at the world that I never appreciated that Eds was only trying to help me. Eventually, I realized that all I was doing was hurting the both of us. So, I did what I knew was right, I broke up with him. In the end he understood and wanted to stay friends. Which leads us to where we are now."

I looked up at them nervously and saw all of them have looks of slight shock but also, determination. Which confused me until Takemichi spoke up and said, "Well, I think that it's good that you were able to see what your actions did to those around you. It shows that you care about the people you're close with. Because not everyone is able to realize until it's far to late that their actions caused a lot of damage to others. You were able to stop yourself before you lost what you held dear to you. It means that your a good person, Y/n." At his words I had to sallow that lump in my throat.

I drew in a shaky breath, willed my tears to not fall and said, "Thank you, Takemichi." With that I got up and threw away the now cold food. I walked back to the group and said, "I have work today so I'm going to go change then head out. I'll see you guys later." I gave them a fake smile and saw that Izana looked at me with concern and went to my room. The truth is, I didn't have work today, but I needed to get out before I got emotional in front of them.

After I finished getting dressed, I looked in the mirror and sighed. I practiced my fake smile for a minute or 2 then I walked back out. I saw everyone sitting in the living either talking or watching TV. I walked to the door and before I walked out I shouted, "I'm heading out now!" I heard a chorus of 'see you' 'bye' and 'have a good day'. I walked out and immediately dropped my act started walking to the park.

Timeskip

Halfway to the park I heard someone's footsteps behind me. I thought nothing of it until I kept hearing them like they were following me. So I kept walking to the park and when I got there I quickly spun around to see who was following me. And to my sock it was...Izana. I looked at him with a face of shock and said, "Izana, what are you doing here? And why were you following me?"

He looked at me with an apologetic look and said, "Well, I noticed that after Takemichi's speech, you were faking your smile. I just wanted to make sure you were ok." His statement took me by surprise. I thought that I perfected my fake smile so well that nobody was able to see right through it. Yet, Izana did. Almost like he understood me.

So instead of explaining right away I said, "You mind if I smoke?" I watched as his faced turned to one of shock and surprise but nonetheless, he said, "Sure, I didn't take you as one to smoke, quite frankly." To that I chuckled and lit my cigarette. We stood there for a while in silence as I finished my cigarette. Suddenly half way through it, I put it out and said, "How'd you know?" The question came out harsher than I intended and I quietly winced at that. I hopped that Izana didn't hear it.

As I was about to apologize to Izana, he suddenly spoke and said, "Know what?" For some unknown reason this seemed to full my annoyance further. But I kept calm and said, "That my smile was fake. How'd you know! I spent YEARS perfecting it so no one absolutely NO ONE would see through it yet you...you..you were able to see right through it instantly and I want to know how!" At this point I was panting, but my mind begging to know how someone who barely knows me instantly saw through my facade when people I've known never did.

I wanted to know what I did wrong.

Before my thoughts could continue, I heard Izana speak, he said, "I know because I've been doing the same thing for years. I guess you can say that it was a matter of me being able to realize when someone was doing the same thing I was." He paused, took a deep breath then continued, "Or, you can say that I'm simply, observant. Whichever you choose doesn't matter because both are true. Even if I didn't do the same thing I would know all the same. Chalk it up to chance or luck if you'd like, but neither are right. I saw that you're smile never reached your eyes. That you were tensed the whole time. That your every movement seemed strained. That, you wanted to cry. I saw all of this and yet, not a single drop of your real emotions shone through. Even now, you want so desperately to cry, to scream, to yell and to be, vulnerable with somebody, anybody. But you were never able to, because nobody saw that you were hurting inside. That you needed someone's help. I know all of this because these were once the same things I wanted. And over time, I got them. Yet, you never did. So, I'm here to let you have it all, to be able to let it all out. I'm here."

I didn't even notice that I started to cry until he came and hugged me. In his embrace I felt safe. I started to sob. I sobbed and sobbed finally breaking the iron walls I built around my heart. After a while I started to feel my eyes start to close from the exhaustion from crying. As I fought to keep my eyes open I whispered to him, "Thank you, Izana." And finally drifted into a peaceful darkness.

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A/n: Hey guys! This was a long one. Sorry for not posting in a while, I've been busy with school. I kid you not while writing Izana's speech, I was listening to "Eight" by Sleeping At Last. Anyway, thanks for reading💕 Words: 1,200.